Is quarantine making me go crazy or is a greater power directing me towards this woman?? Please help.

So... I don't even know where to begin. Someone help.

Im an 20 year old female from the UK and I've always been 'bi-curious' so to say, and have had a slight attraction to older women. Despite the curiosity, I have never been with a woman before and have always viewed it as a fantasy of mine. However, during lockdown here in the UK on our weekly clap for the NHS I've noticed a neighbour that I've never noticed before who lives crossed the road. I assume she lives alone since she's the only one that comes out every week and would say she is in her late 40's. Anyways, that's besides the point. What I'm trying to get at is that I don't know why or how but I keep feeling this sort of force directing me towards this woman. I know it sounds crazy and at first I just thought it was a coincidence, but week in and out she would just look at me with this endearing look in her eyes smiling and not look away until I started to awkwardly giggle and then the clap would be over and that was it until the next week. And very week I realised it more and more and would think about it so much. Like right now for example I feel like I'm sitting here thinking like a crazy person because I can't stop thinking about her and that look in her eyes, it is just so powerful like I can't explain it. I know it sounds crazy, honestly I do, but I can't help but feel something directing me or pulling me towards this woman and I don't know what to do about it. I cant help but feel that she's so lonely in that house and that she just needs someone to talk to or a bit of friendly company. I just can't stop thinking about her and its actually crazy because I've never properly met this woman in my life let alone know she lived across the street from me.

So my question is what do I do? Like am I crazy or is their actually something pulling me towards this woman? If so do I act on it and go in for a friendly introduction by asking her if she needs anything? Or is that too weird? A random neighbour knocking on the door?

Ahhhhh! As you can see this is really getting to me and I just need some advice. Is lockdown getting to me or not? Please help



Submitted May 31, 2020 at 12:00AM

So... I don't even know where to begin. Someone help.Im an 20 year old female from the UK and I've always been 'bi-curious' so to say, and have had a slight attraction to older women. Despite the curiosity, I have never been with a woman before and have always viewed it as a fantasy of mine. However, during lockdown here in the UK on our weekly clap for the NHS I've noticed a neighbour that I've never noticed before who lives crossed the road. I assume she lives alone since she's the only one that comes out every week and would say she is in her late 40's. Anyways, that's besides the point. What I'm trying to get at is that I don't know why or how but I keep feeling this sort of force directing me towards this woman. I know it sounds crazy and at first I just thought it was a coincidence, but week in and out she would just look at me with this endearing look in her eyes smiling and not look away until I started to awkwardly giggle and then the clap would be over and that was it until the next week. And very week I realised it more and more and would think about it so much. Like right now for example I feel like I'm sitting here thinking like a crazy person because I can't stop thinking about her and that look in her eyes, it is just so powerful like I can't explain it. I know it sounds crazy, honestly I do, but I can't help but feel something directing me or pulling me towards this woman and I don't know what to do about it. I cant help but feel that she's so lonely in that house and that she just needs someone to talk to or a bit of friendly company. I just can't stop thinking about her and its actually crazy because I've never properly met this woman in my life let alone know she lived across the street from me.So my question is what do I do? Like am I crazy or is their actually something pulling me towards this woman? If so do I act on it and go in for a friendly introduction by asking her if she needs anything? Or is that too weird? A random neighbour knocking on the door?Ahhhhh! As you can see this is really getting to me and I just need some advice. Is lockdown getting to me or not? Please help
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