I need advice to get over a serious relationship

Hello,

I already posted one of these but I took it down because I thought everything was getting better between us. How stupid am I lmao.

Background: I met this girl on snap over the summer through a mutual friend. We started to snap a lot and we really hit it off. We found out that we were going to the same school and we were both gonna do crew. We started dating on September 10, 2019.

And last week Monday, she broke up with me. We had gotten into a really stupid argument and she just said she still loved me but we weren’t right for each other. That we kept hurting each other. The next day she said how she wanted us to work and we should get back together but take is slow, at the end of that day she broke up with me. A day later, she said that she’d be fine starting all over from scratch and it was smooth sailing until yesterday, where she broke up with me again right after we had just hung out together with a few other friends. Then today, she told me that she still loved me and she wanted to get together in the future and she just needed time to get through everything in her life. That she wouldn’t hurt me again and that she loved me. But then she just told me an hour ago that there’s no chance of us and we’re better off not together but she wanted to still be friends.

She meant the entire world to me and was the only thing that made me happy. And it hurt to be given hope just to have it ripped away, 4 times. She was my first relationship. My first kiss. My first everything. I don’t know what to do now because I don’t feel like I can even talk to her anymore without breaking down. Before I met her I had a few years of bad depression and she’s probably the only reason I’m still alive. She gave me a will to live and a sense of importance and meanin. Is there any advice anyone could give to help me cope with the breakup? It’s especially hard because we have the same friend group.

TL;DR My first girlfriend just broke up with me. We had a serious relationship of about 6 months. She said she still wants to be friends but I don’t know what to do and I need help coping with the breakup.

Edit: I’m in 9th grade

Submitted March 18, 2020 at 12:08AM

Hello,I already posted one of these but I took it down because I thought everything was getting better between us. How stupid am I lmao.Background: I met this girl on snap over the summer through a mutual friend. We started to snap a lot and we really hit it off. We found out that we were going to the same school and we were both gonna do crew. We started dating on September 10, 2019.And last week Monday, she broke up with me. We had gotten into a really stupid argument and she just said she still loved me but we weren’t right for each other. That we kept hurting each other. The next day she said how she wanted us to work and we should get back together but take is slow, at the end of that day she broke up with me. A day later, she said that she’d be fine starting all over from scratch and it was smooth sailing until yesterday, where she broke up with me again right after we had just hung out together with a few other friends. Then today, she told me that she still loved me and she wanted to get together in the future and she just needed time to get through everything in her life. That she wouldn’t hurt me again and that she loved me. But then she just told me an hour ago that there’s no chance of us and we’re better off not together but she wanted to still be friends.She meant the entire world to me and was the only thing that made me happy. And it hurt to be given hope just to have it ripped away, 4 times. She was my first relationship. My first kiss. My first everything. I don’t know what to do now because I don’t feel like I can even talk to her anymore without breaking down. Before I met her I had a few years of bad depression and she’s probably the only reason I’m still alive. She gave me a will to live and a sense of importance and meanin. Is there any advice anyone could give to help me cope with the breakup? It’s especially hard because we have the same friend group.TL;DR My first girlfriend just broke up with me. We had a serious relationship of about 6 months. She said she still wants to be friends but I don’t know what to do and I need help coping with the breakup.Edit: I’m in 9th grade