My (22F) boyfriend (21M) is hurting our relationship by taking MDMA on a regular basis even though he promised to stop after he overdosed one night

I was raised in a really strict religious family, about 2 years ago I “escaped” and started living my own life. This is also when I met my boyfriend. Everything was new to me and really exciting. I didn’t want to let anything hold me back so when my boyfriend introduced me to MDMA and LSD I did it a couple of times with him and some other friends. The first time was really amazing and I didn’t think about the risks or consequences at all. My boyfriend told me he had done it multiple times so I just trusted him. Then about a few months ago we had two pretty bad experiences with it, it was actually my boyfriend who started feeling sick, he took about 1,5 pill that had a pretty high dosage (I never took more than 1) and by the end of the night he started seeing hallucinations and almost passed out while we were walking home, then once we got home he kept throwing up and eventually fell asleep. That whole time I was really scared because I didn’t know what to do and he kept telling me to not call an ambulance, which I didn’t but if something would have happened to him I would’ve never forgiven myself.

That night really traumatized me and made me see the dark side of this drug. I decided I needed a very long break from it maybe even never do it again. I did a lot of research and felt dumb for not reading more about it earlier. That night my boyfriend also told me MDMA just wasn’t for him and he wouldn’t do it anymore. However, just a month later we went to a festival and he took some MDMA again. I was really scared and worried that something would happen. That day everything went fine cause he only took half a pill.

Now about two months later, he’s planning to do it again during a night out with some friends and I just don’t know what to do, I’m still pretty traumatized from that bad night and I just don’t want to be around him, worried constantly. Even when he mentioned it I started feeling nauseous and couldn’t sleep well. He says that I shouldn’t be self-absorbed and shouldn’t try to control what he does but he’s placing me in a really tough position. I love him a lot and I kinda developed some bad anxiety from that night, I don’t know why the anxiety got so bad but I feel like he doesn’t understand. He doesn’t give me the time I need to recover and forget what happened because he already forgot how bad it was. I don’t want to break up with him cause everything else is great but I feel like this is a pretty big problem.

Does anyone have experience with this? Am I overreacting?

TL;DR: boyfriend keeps taking MDMA even though he overdosed one night, I’m constantly worried that something bad will happen again.

Submitted September 19, 2019 at 11:40PM

I was raised in a really strict religious family, about 2 years ago I “escaped” and started living my own life. This is also when I met my boyfriend. Everything was new to me and really exciting. I didn’t want to let anything hold me back so when my boyfriend introduced me to MDMA and LSD I did it a couple of times with him and some other friends. The first time was really amazing and I didn’t think about the risks or consequences at all. My boyfriend told me he had done it multiple times so I just trusted him. Then about a few months ago we had two pretty bad experiences with it, it was actually my boyfriend who started feeling sick, he took about 1,5 pill that had a pretty high dosage (I never took more than 1) and by the end of the night he started seeing hallucinations and almost passed out while we were walking home, then once we got home he kept throwing up and eventually fell asleep. That whole time I was really scared because I didn’t know what to do and he kept telling me to not call an ambulance, which I didn’t but if something would have happened to him I would’ve never forgiven myself.That night really traumatized me and made me see the dark side of this drug. I decided I needed a very long break from it maybe even never do it again. I did a lot of research and felt dumb for not reading more about it earlier. That night my boyfriend also told me MDMA just wasn’t for him and he wouldn’t do it anymore. However, just a month later we went to a festival and he took some MDMA again. I was really scared and worried that something would happen. That day everything went fine cause he only took half a pill.Now about two months later, he’s planning to do it again during a night out with some friends and I just don’t know what to do, I’m still pretty traumatized from that bad night and I just don’t want to be around him, worried constantly. Even when he mentioned it I started feeling nauseous and couldn’t sleep well. He says that I shouldn’t be self-absorbed and shouldn’t try to control what he does but he’s placing me in a really tough position. I love him a lot and I kinda developed some bad anxiety from that night, I don’t know why the anxiety got so bad but I feel like he doesn’t understand. He doesn’t give me the time I need to recover and forget what happened because he already forgot how bad it was. I don’t want to break up with him cause everything else is great but I feel like this is a pretty big problem.Does anyone have experience with this? Am I overreacting?TL;DR: boyfriend keeps taking MDMA even though he overdosed one night, I’m constantly worried that something bad will happen again.