18y/o M , don't know whats wrong with me but don't know what love is

18y/o M , don't know whats wrong with me but ever since i moved away to university i have been in quite 'relationships' and each ended the same way. I met them thought they were amazing thought i could definitley be in a long term relationship with them then with 3 girls after 2 weeks i just thought nope i definitley dont want this then ended it with them just out of the blue felt extremely bad about it each time. I would see them pretty much every day and became very close with them thinking after each girl surely this wont happen again i can hold onto this feeling for more than two weeks. Just seems a lot more girls her i have so much more in common with them and get on with them so much more. Before the christmas holiday i have been with this girl with 3 weeks (longest yet) and well think shes amazing of course. However she lives on another continent from where we go to university together so habent seen her over our extremely long 5 week break. I miss her so much but how the hell can i trust my feelings if ive stopped having feeling everytime. Its so annoying i cant get her out my head i cant wait to see her in a week but i feel like im way too into her and im just scared i stop liking her because then i will feel awful ending it with her... althoughe each time ive ended it with a girl couple days after im like damn... i wish i was with someone so much now...

i dont knkw what i want people to reply with i just needed to get this out somehwere and see if others have had similar experiences. I try tell myself - im still young and there will be so many girls probably that i could be with but yet i just want to be with this one girl and think she is the one find it hard to sleep at night without thinking about her havent gone to sleep sober in the past month eiethr go to bed drunk or high what the hell is wrong with me.

Apologies for the spelling mistake, the previous sentence explains why.

I dont know what i want people to say to this if they do at all but damn... my mind is screwed.. at least that what it feels like. I just want to look into her eyes see her smile and have her hold me in her arms again, the best feeling in the world, truly.



Submitted January 16, 2020 at 11:20PM

18y/o M , don't know whats wrong with me but ever since i moved away to university i have been in quite 'relationships' and each ended the same way. I met them thought they were amazing thought i could definitley be in a long term relationship with them then with 3 girls after 2 weeks i just thought nope i definitley dont want this then ended it with them just out of the blue felt extremely bad about it each time. I would see them pretty much every day and became very close with them thinking after each girl surely this wont happen again i can hold onto this feeling for more than two weeks. Just seems a lot more girls her i have so much more in common with them and get on with them so much more. Before the christmas holiday i have been with this girl with 3 weeks (longest yet) and well think shes amazing of course. However she lives on another continent from where we go to university together so habent seen her over our extremely long 5 week break. I miss her so much but how the hell can i trust my feelings if ive stopped having feeling everytime. Its so annoying i cant get her out my head i cant wait to see her in a week but i feel like im way too into her and im just scared i stop liking her because then i will feel awful ending it with her... althoughe each time ive ended it with a girl couple days after im like damn... i wish i was with someone so much now...i dont knkw what i want people to reply with i just needed to get this out somehwere and see if others have had similar experiences. I try tell myself - im still young and there will be so many girls probably that i could be with but yet i just want to be with this one girl and think she is the one find it hard to sleep at night without thinking about her havent gone to sleep sober in the past month eiethr go to bed drunk or high what the hell is wrong with me.Apologies for the spelling mistake, the previous sentence explains why.I dont know what i want people to say to this if they do at all but damn... my mind is screwed.. at least that what it feels like. I just want to look into her eyes see her smile and have her hold me in her arms again, the best feeling in the world, truly.
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