Me(19m) and my gf (17f) are currently on a break from relationship, but I'm so scared of losing her, what should I do?

Hi, 2 months ago I've met a girl at the party, but it wasn't some random chick, but friend of my brother. So we'd stated talking and stuff. After a few days I asked her out, after 4 dates we kissed for the first time and were "officialy" in a relationship. After a month and something, she was at my house and was so tired that she felt asleep (atleast that's what she told me), when she came home, she wrote me, how much am I different than the other guys before, how much she loves me and want to be with me. I felt amazing, because it's my first real relationship (I've never was in a relationship before) and I really loved her too. But there were some problems in my life. I had no money, we are poor family. So I had to find a job and couldn't find any and when I was with my gf I've always thought about it and wasn't mentally with her that much (I didn't told her about it). Fortunately I have found a job and was happy. We went to a concert with my girlfriend, her brother and his girlfriend. That day we also helped her parents, the whole day I was totaly mentally away. We had day before graduation party and I had a big hangover, so I didn't talked that much. During the day and the concert I noticed that something was on her (my gf) mind, she wasn't talking/smiling and when I asked her she just said she is tired. The following day when I came home she texted me that she noticed some things. That I have changed, that I'm more silent, don't take her by her hand/hugging her and not doing any of the stuff you normally do in a relationship. Also that I'm quiet in front of her parents and brother. She texted me that she wanted to be in a relationship but now when she is in one she feels like she doesn't have it. Now I know that I wasn't the perfect boyfriend. It's my first relationship and I have a lot to learn. And yes I'm a quiet type if guy, but I'm working on being more talkative etc. (for example before a year I wouldn't go to a party or even talk to a nice girl). We agreed to meet and talk about it. I showed up with a rose and she was very surprised, I told her about the problem I had and that it was reason why I was more quiet etc. and that if she wants give us a chance, I promised her that I will be more open to her. She said that she doesn't want to break up. Following week I was texting her normally like we used to do, but she was just replying with a few words or not at all. Then she texted me a week later that she doesn't know if she wants to be in a relationship with me anymore (I felt totaly devastated). I replied her that if she wants to break up with me, she can say it, I will handle it. But she replied that she is not sure, if she wants to break up and then regret it (she is very undecisive) so she came up with a break. I agreed and clarified the rules (we will not date someone else). Than I told her to cantact me, when she will know what she want. 3 days passed and I was totaly emotionaly dead and then she all of a sudden texted me, why my brother and his gf wants to add her on ig and fb. I said that I don't know, my brother is not talking that much with us. I thought that she missed me and send her funny meme, she replied only "Yeah". I know that we are on break and I told her that I will wait till she decides. But I feel like if I wait I will loose her completely. What should I do not to loose her? Get her attracted again? Should I just wait? Also on monday we would have two-month anniversary and I wanted to give her gift and take to the Zoo she always wanted to visit. But know I don't think we will see each other, should I send her the gift (phone case and screen protector on a mobile phone, she has her broken and wanted a new case and screen protector, so I bought it a while ago)?

TL;DR: Me and my girlfriend are currently on a break, what should I do to get her attracted again and not loose her?

P. S. : I'm sorry for my english. I'm not a native english speaker and not that good in english.

Submitted July 04, 2019 at 11:55PM

Hi, 2 months ago I've met a girl at the party, but it wasn't some random chick, but friend of my brother. So we'd stated talking and stuff. After a few days I asked her out, after 4 dates we kissed for the first time and were "officialy" in a relationship. After a month and something, she was at my house and was so tired that she felt asleep (atleast that's what she told me), when she came home, she wrote me, how much am I different than the other guys before, how much she loves me and want to be with me. I felt amazing, because it's my first real relationship (I've never was in a relationship before) and I really loved her too. But there were some problems in my life. I had no money, we are poor family. So I had to find a job and couldn't find any and when I was with my gf I've always thought about it and wasn't mentally with her that much (I didn't told her about it). Fortunately I have found a job and was happy. We went to a concert with my girlfriend, her brother and his girlfriend. That day we also helped her parents, the whole day I was totaly mentally away. We had day before graduation party and I had a big hangover, so I didn't talked that much. During the day and the concert I noticed that something was on her (my gf) mind, she wasn't talking/smiling and when I asked her she just said she is tired. The following day when I came home she texted me that she noticed some things. That I have changed, that I'm more silent, don't take her by her hand/hugging her and not doing any of the stuff you normally do in a relationship. Also that I'm quiet in front of her parents and brother. She texted me that she wanted to be in a relationship but now when she is in one she feels like she doesn't have it. Now I know that I wasn't the perfect boyfriend. It's my first relationship and I have a lot to learn. And yes I'm a quiet type if guy, but I'm working on being more talkative etc. (for example before a year I wouldn't go to a party or even talk to a nice girl). We agreed to meet and talk about it. I showed up with a rose and she was very surprised, I told her about the problem I had and that it was reason why I was more quiet etc. and that if she wants give us a chance, I promised her that I will be more open to her. She said that she doesn't want to break up. Following week I was texting her normally like we used to do, but she was just replying with a few words or not at all. Then she texted me a week later that she doesn't know if she wants to be in a relationship with me anymore (I felt totaly devastated). I replied her that if she wants to break up with me, she can say it, I will handle it. But she replied that she is not sure, if she wants to break up and then regret it (she is very undecisive) so she came up with a break. I agreed and clarified the rules (we will not date someone else). Than I told her to cantact me, when she will know what she want. 3 days passed and I was totaly emotionaly dead and then she all of a sudden texted me, why my brother and his gf wants to add her on ig and fb. I said that I don't know, my brother is not talking that much with us. I thought that she missed me and send her funny meme, she replied only "Yeah". I know that we are on break and I told her that I will wait till she decides. But I feel like if I wait I will loose her completely. What should I do not to loose her? Get her attracted again? Should I just wait? Also on monday we would have two-month anniversary and I wanted to give her gift and take to the Zoo she always wanted to visit. But know I don't think we will see each other, should I send her the gift (phone case and screen protector on a mobile phone, she has her broken and wanted a new case and screen protector, so I bought it a while ago)?TL;DR: Me and my girlfriend are currently on a break, what should I do to get her attracted again and not loose her?P. S. : I'm sorry for my english. I'm not a native english speaker and not that good in english.