I can’t get over the past things a “one night” fling said about me.

(I’m using my friends Reddit account to stay anonymous, thank you!)

So to preface this, I’ve had three “sexual” parters. I’ve only had piv sex with one who is my current boyfriend and who I lost my virginity to.

But the other one was a junior high boyfriend. I remember we tried to do the deed but it was really awkward and he was on Xanax. So it never got in, it was flaccid.

Anyway, the “One night Stand” starts like this. I just turned 16. I had only “pecked” a few crushes. Like a small kiss but that’s it. He was a older football player. I had a huge crush. He asked to come over, he knew I was very drunk. (He was sober) and then he came over and coerced me to give him head. I took my shirt off (not my bra) and left my pants on. It was a bad experience. Not a head pusher but really gross and weird. He knew how much I liked him, and he knew I wanted to date him.

Afterward, he asked and said I should have sex with him because virginity doesn’t matter. He then left and that was that. The next few days my “best friend” told me “I really don’t wanna tell you this, it’s gonna hurt your feelings.” And that was annoying because this guy had literally ghosted me right after it happened and I knew she was referring to him. She ended up telling me that he told his friends and other people that I was the ugliest, grossest girl he had ever been with. That I was super fat, and gross. (I was 115 pounds and 5’1 at the time) it literally was so traumatizing that I blocked it out. I had to see him and his friends at school and all my friends knowing the things he was telling them. And he was popular! And older! It was so bad. I already had an eating disorder.

I just can’t get Over this. It rubbed off on my current relationship because in the beginning we broke it off for a week or two because of a bad fight. A ex friend of both of ours told me when we were broken up that “he said you were ugly and would only fuck you from behind, and if he did it again he would put a bag over your head.” To this day, my current boyfriend denies this. It’s literally word of mouth because both have no proof or way to confirm one or the other is lying. He’s a great boyfriend. He’s not selfish in bed, he’s always doing things for me, always helping my family, going all out for holidays/birthdays/ect.

But the insecure side of me believes he did say this out of anger and just won’t tell me. I believe if he did, there is truth to it. I have a body type where my fat goes to my face and stomach. I lost weight now but I had baby fat when we started dating.

And it was so eerily similar to what my “one night stand said”. It makes me sick.

Submitted September 20, 2021 at 11:48PM

(I’m using my friends Reddit account to stay anonymous, thank you!)So to preface this, I’ve had three “sexual” parters. I’ve only had piv sex with one who is my current boyfriend and who I lost my virginity to.But the other one was a junior high boyfriend. I remember we tried to do the deed but it was really awkward and he was on Xanax. So it never got in, it was flaccid.Anyway, the “One night Stand” starts like this. I just turned 16. I had only “pecked” a few crushes. Like a small kiss but that’s it. He was a older football player. I had a huge crush. He asked to come over, he knew I was very drunk. (He was sober) and then he came over and coerced me to give him head. I took my shirt off (not my bra) and left my pants on. It was a bad experience. Not a head pusher but really gross and weird. He knew how much I liked him, and he knew I wanted to date him.Afterward, he asked and said I should have sex with him because virginity doesn’t matter. He then left and that was that. The next few days my “best friend” told me “I really don’t wanna tell you this, it’s gonna hurt your feelings.” And that was annoying because this guy had literally ghosted me right after it happened and I knew she was referring to him. She ended up telling me that he told his friends and other people that I was the ugliest, grossest girl he had ever been with. That I was super fat, and gross. (I was 115 pounds and 5’1 at the time) it literally was so traumatizing that I blocked it out. I had to see him and his friends at school and all my friends knowing the things he was telling them. And he was popular! And older! It was so bad. I already had an eating disorder.I just can’t get Over this. It rubbed off on my current relationship because in the beginning we broke it off for a week or two because of a bad fight. A ex friend of both of ours told me when we were broken up that “he said you were ugly and would only fuck you from behind, and if he did it again he would put a bag over your head.” To this day, my current boyfriend denies this. It’s literally word of mouth because both have no proof or way to confirm one or the other is lying. He’s a great boyfriend. He’s not selfish in bed, he’s always doing things for me, always helping my family, going all out for holidays/birthdays/ect.But the insecure side of me believes he did say this out of anger and just won’t tell me. I believe if he did, there is truth to it. I have a body type where my fat goes to my face and stomach. I lost weight now but I had baby fat when we started dating.And it was so eerily similar to what my “one night stand said”. It makes me sick.