I am the guy who lost his Virginity at 27 and had his first kiss at 28.

Yes I did loose my virginity at 27 and had my first kiss at 28...

I don't know where to start! Ok here comes..

I never had a problem with waiting as virgin, I wanted to give it to someone I'm gonna end up marrying, but I did have a problem with connecting with people as a normal person. I am Male victim of child abuse, I was abused by a female cousin, my class teacher and one of my male friends. Fortunately I never had any actual intercourse with them but they did molest me when I was young. This did mess me up big time, I had lot of questions about myself, also my family was going through a really tough time, so I never entertained any loving relationships till I was 24. All this pain I received from this world actually made me numb from experiencing any pleasure :/ ..

I was like this until I met this beautiful girl at my workplace(Lets call her Lesley), she was my coworker it was like love at first sight but she was not into me and she made fun of me that I was a Virgin at 25. I did't take it well stated hurting myself inside. One of my other coworker helped me throughout this whole situation(Lets call her Alexa). I met Alexa when I was at the breaking point in my life. I believe that destiny brought us together, Alexa mothered me in learning lot of things about the western culture, we instantly became really close. Our personalities balance each other, I feel her presence in every day of my life, She is the first true loving relationship I had out of my family. Without realizing she became my FIRST LOVE!

Not a day goes by without thinking about her, we text each other everyday. I was 26 by the time I was madly in love with her. She is the first person who brought me out of my boundaries, I will always hold a deep memory of her. We could have gotten into a relationship but my lack of experience Fucked me up! I didn't handle things properly with her I was lying a lot to myself and her that it is only friendship even though my true feelings are quite different. I waited for her patiently for two years, at first I was not truthful to my feelings or maybe too scared to express them to her. I thought she may have she seen me only as a friend or maybe she gave up on me long time ago. She dated other guys, I still patiently waited for her hurting myself thinking that one day she will eventually choose me because my true love!

But things got worse when she expressed her interest in one of my Ex-Roommate. That is when I actually went to seek professional help for the first time in my life. We had a huge fight for the first time, she asked me if I was in love with her. Well there comes the coward! I lied to her again, she never spoke with that guy after this but she got successful in learning my true feelings. I still remember that night when I hopelessly lied to her that I just saw her as a friend, but when she said her parent's thought we liked each other I was not able to digest it, I couldn't lie anymore! when I said yes she didn't take it well. This is when I realized I lost her or I never had her to begin with.

I lost her because of my hesitation and self lying? I hesitated because I'm a Virgin? I blamed it on myself, I blamed it on my culture, I blamed it on my lack of experience, I blamed it on me being virgin, I BLAMED IT ON ALL MY BELIEVES. After lot of thinking I realized I didn't start right with her because I reproved western culture! I judged Alexa based on my experience with Lesley! I lost her because of my orthodox believes???? I wanted to kill my believes I WANTED MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WITH SOMEONE I WILL NEVER REMEMBER IN MY LIFE. So, I called an escort service!

I actually didn't have sex with the first escort, I just hugged deeply for 30 min. Even though she is an escort she was the nicest person I ever met! I did the same with 2 other escorts didn't have sex but just cuddled with them thats it. The third time is when I actually did it! it was with some young blonde escort I don't even remember her face, she just took it in we tried to do it for couple of min but I was not interested, so we just laid next to each other naked on the bed. I told her my story, she smiled at me and she said that one day I will meet a nice women. I told her loosing virginity did't make any difference I am still the same person in and out, I think it is the feelings which actually matter, she agreed to that and said "I do it with hundreds of people every day, but sex with my loved person is the most special to me" I smiled at her. She tried to give me her real phone number name, I said "no I don't want to remember anything about my first girl", I want to live in a belief that when you truly fall in love with each other that is when you loose you're virginity. I think for some couples it takes years to loose their virginity and some die without ever loosing it! she smiled at this, wished me luck and gave me a hug before I left.

I came in good terms with Alexa, I have confessed my true feelings with her. We had a deep insight into our feelings with each other. She said she loves me as a friend but not romantically, that is when I realized about the importance and indifference of romantic love. She said she will always have me as a friend for her life and I said YES! This time I am truthful to my feelings :)))

I think for some people breaking out of Eggshell could be as simple as bird coming out of egg, but for some people it could be like breaking out of their whole world!

I will post the story about my first kiss in part 2! (because escorts never kiss lol)

Submitted March 19, 2020 at 11:39PM

Yes I did loose my virginity at 27 and had my first kiss at 28...I don't know where to start! Ok here comes..I never had a problem with waiting as virgin, I wanted to give it to someone I'm gonna end up marrying, but I did have a problem with connecting with people as a normal person. I am Male victim of child abuse, I was abused by a female cousin, my class teacher and one of my male friends. Fortunately I never had any actual intercourse with them but they did molest me when I was young. This did mess me up big time, I had lot of questions about myself, also my family was going through a really tough time, so I never entertained any loving relationships till I was 24. All this pain I received from this world actually made me numb from experiencing any pleasure :/ ..I was like this until I met this beautiful girl at my workplace(Lets call her Lesley), she was my coworker it was like love at first sight but she was not into me and she made fun of me that I was a Virgin at 25. I did't take it well stated hurting myself inside. One of my other coworker helped me throughout this whole situation(Lets call her Alexa). I met Alexa when I was at the breaking point in my life. I believe that destiny brought us together, Alexa mothered me in learning lot of things about the western culture, we instantly became really close. Our personalities balance each other, I feel her presence in every day of my life, She is the first true loving relationship I had out of my family. Without realizing she became my FIRST LOVE!Not a day goes by without thinking about her, we text each other everyday. I was 26 by the time I was madly in love with her. She is the first person who brought me out of my boundaries, I will always hold a deep memory of her. We could have gotten into a relationship but my lack of experience Fucked me up! I didn't handle things properly with her I was lying a lot to myself and her that it is only friendship even though my true feelings are quite different. I waited for her patiently for two years, at first I was not truthful to my feelings or maybe too scared to express them to her. I thought she may have she seen me only as a friend or maybe she gave up on me long time ago. She dated other guys, I still patiently waited for her hurting myself thinking that one day she will eventually choose me because my true love!But things got worse when she expressed her interest in one of my Ex-Roommate. That is when I actually went to seek professional help for the first time in my life. We had a huge fight for the first time, she asked me if I was in love with her. Well there comes the coward! I lied to her again, she never spoke with that guy after this but she got successful in learning my true feelings. I still remember that night when I hopelessly lied to her that I just saw her as a friend, but when she said her parent's thought we liked each other I was not able to digest it, I couldn't lie anymore! when I said yes she didn't take it well. This is when I realized I lost her or I never had her to begin with.I lost her because of my hesitation and self lying? I hesitated because I'm a Virgin? I blamed it on myself, I blamed it on my culture, I blamed it on my lack of experience, I blamed it on me being virgin, I BLAMED IT ON ALL MY BELIEVES. After lot of thinking I realized I didn't start right with her because I reproved western culture! I judged Alexa based on my experience with Lesley! I lost her because of my orthodox believes???? I wanted to kill my believes I WANTED MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WITH SOMEONE I WILL NEVER REMEMBER IN MY LIFE. So, I called an escort service!I actually didn't have sex with the first escort, I just hugged deeply for 30 min. Even though she is an escort she was the nicest person I ever met! I did the same with 2 other escorts didn't have sex but just cuddled with them thats it. The third time is when I actually did it! it was with some young blonde escort I don't even remember her face, she just took it in we tried to do it for couple of min but I was not interested, so we just laid next to each other naked on the bed. I told her my story, she smiled at me and she said that one day I will meet a nice women. I told her loosing virginity did't make any difference I am still the same person in and out, I think it is the feelings which actually matter, she agreed to that and said "I do it with hundreds of people every day, but sex with my loved person is the most special to me" I smiled at her. She tried to give me her real phone number name, I said "no I don't want to remember anything about my first girl", I want to live in a belief that when you truly fall in love with each other that is when you loose you're virginity. I think for some couples it takes years to loose their virginity and some die without ever loosing it! she smiled at this, wished me luck and gave me a hug before I left.I came in good terms with Alexa, I have confessed my true feelings with her. We had a deep insight into our feelings with each other. She said she loves me as a friend but not romantically, that is when I realized about the importance and indifference of romantic love. She said she will always have me as a friend for her life and I said YES! This time I am truthful to my feelings :)))I think for some people breaking out of Eggshell could be as simple as bird coming out of egg, but for some people it could be like breaking out of their whole world!I will post the story about my first kiss in part 2! (because escorts never kiss lol)