Permanent damaged vaginal health because of false showering in childhood?

Hello, I (f23) am struggling really often with my vaginal Flora. Sex a bit more often (2x in 2 days) stress and the pill will give me a yeast infection really fast and over all I am feeling a burn really often in that area. I overthink my hygene routes and do everything like it is written in the FAQ hygene advice in this sub. All my clothes which come in contact with that area are always getting a good wash (high temperatures etc). I were at the doctor really often as I came into puberty . Sometimes they really diagnosed a infection but on other times they just told me that I am to sensible. I have no clue about anything medical but my mind is thinking that my vaginal Flora or my natural defence isn't that strong like it should be.

As I tried to look at my childhood where it could came from, I remember how my mother inserted shower gel into my vagina while she washed me. I don't know if she did it by purpose but I cried every time in pain even hours after it. I think she did it too rough and didn't washed it out. My mom and dad where trying to comfort me while I cried in my bed wrapped up in a towel. They told me that it is normal to feel the pain while washing. It was quite revolutionary for me as soon as I was old enough to take a shower by myself to find out that it didn't need to hurt while I wash my genitals. Could it be that my mother messed my vaginal health up by cleaning my private parts too rough? Well I am clearly sure that this memory messed with my relationship between me and my vagina but i am interested if I got physically Permanent damaged in that area.

I really don't know if this sub is the right one to ask for advice and I know that I cannot get a diagnosis over the internet. It is just messing with me right now. I am currently healing out a yeast infection again and can't go to the doctor tomorrow or the next days. And I feel so ashamed to explain it to my boyfriend, where it came from and that he needs to take the meds too.

Submitted October 22, 2019 at 12:02AM

Hello, I (f23) am struggling really often with my vaginal Flora. Sex a bit more often (2x in 2 days) stress and the pill will give me a yeast infection really fast and over all I am feeling a burn really often in that area. I overthink my hygene routes and do everything like it is written in the FAQ hygene advice in this sub. All my clothes which come in contact with that area are always getting a good wash (high temperatures etc). I were at the doctor really often as I came into puberty . Sometimes they really diagnosed a infection but on other times they just told me that I am to sensible. I have no clue about anything medical but my mind is thinking that my vaginal Flora or my natural defence isn't that strong like it should be.As I tried to look at my childhood where it could came from, I remember how my mother inserted shower gel into my vagina while she washed me. I don't know if she did it by purpose but I cried every time in pain even hours after it. I think she did it too rough and didn't washed it out. My mom and dad where trying to comfort me while I cried in my bed wrapped up in a towel. They told me that it is normal to feel the pain while washing. It was quite revolutionary for me as soon as I was old enough to take a shower by myself to find out that it didn't need to hurt while I wash my genitals. Could it be that my mother messed my vaginal health up by cleaning my private parts too rough? Well I am clearly sure that this memory messed with my relationship between me and my vagina but i am interested if I got physically Permanent damaged in that area.I really don't know if this sub is the right one to ask for advice and I know that I cannot get a diagnosis over the internet. It is just messing with me right now. I am currently healing out a yeast infection again and can't go to the doctor tomorrow or the next days. And I feel so ashamed to explain it to my boyfriend, where it came from and that he needs to take the meds too.