(34M) possibly/probably addicted to sex, but have never had and don't see any possibility of having it

I'm hoping maybe someone else has a similar experience and can help me to better understand or help me to not think about or care about it as much as I do. But pretty much 24/7 I can think of nothing but sex and touching and imagining sensations, and I will masturbate 10 times or more every single day. If it's a day off, I will wake up and start thinking about fantasies with women and masturbate upwards of 20 times until I'm physically tired and ready for bed.

I've been this way since I was a few years into university, and honestly it's just how I get through my life. I guess it's not as bad as a drug addiction or something because I still finished university and I work and take care of myself such as going to the gym. But I've been depressed for a long time and am getting continually more depressed because while it seems to be the only thing I can think about, it also seems like it's just not in the cards for me. I have often wondered if seeing a professional worker would alleviate this feeling because part of it is a fixation on wondering or imagining what things like the weight of another person on you or touching various things must be like, but I guess so far the legality and the logistics of arranging something on a professional basis such as traveling, costs, etc. has been a pretty good deterrent. In any case, I'm not sure if it would even help or make things worse since it would probably be a 1-time thing.

I don't think I can continue living this way, i'm hoping someone out there has insight or experience and how you have made strides in getting better (if you have). I don't think it's possible for me to find a partner, but I do think it might be possible to think about it less or to make it not such a priority in my life. Thank you for (hopefully) kind and understanding replies..



Submitted August 19, 2021 at 11:53PM

I'm hoping maybe someone else has a similar experience and can help me to better understand or help me to not think about or care about it as much as I do. But pretty much 24/7 I can think of nothing but sex and touching and imagining sensations, and I will masturbate 10 times or more every single day. If it's a day off, I will wake up and start thinking about fantasies with women and masturbate upwards of 20 times until I'm physically tired and ready for bed.I've been this way since I was a few years into university, and honestly it's just how I get through my life. I guess it's not as bad as a drug addiction or something because I still finished university and I work and take care of myself such as going to the gym. But I've been depressed for a long time and am getting continually more depressed because while it seems to be the only thing I can think about, it also seems like it's just not in the cards for me. I have often wondered if seeing a professional worker would alleviate this feeling because part of it is a fixation on wondering or imagining what things like the weight of another person on you or touching various things must be like, but I guess so far the legality and the logistics of arranging something on a professional basis such as traveling, costs, etc. has been a pretty good deterrent. In any case, I'm not sure if it would even help or make things worse since it would probably be a 1-time thing.I don't think I can continue living this way, i'm hoping someone out there has insight or experience and how you have made strides in getting better (if you have). I don't think it's possible for me to find a partner, but I do think it might be possible to think about it less or to make it not such a priority in my life. Thank you for (hopefully) kind and understanding replies..
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