I wish it could work

I feel in love with him probably from the beginning. A bit of a late bloomer at 23 to lose my virginity, but I wasn’t attached just because he took it but because we clicked so well, he was so kind, so handsome, and spoke about the future with me. The way he looked was as if I manifested the exact guy that I would have wanted and then on top of that he was so good to me. He looked me in the eyes and told me how grateful he was to have met me and how much he cared about me. He told me that I am showing him the positives of living where we live since he had just moved here when I met him.

It’s not enough. He’s pulled away because he’s so unhappy here. He is so unhappy with everything else that he’s getting cold and wants to be alone. It’s so painful. I was so excited that I finally found someone that I could love and maybe they would fall in love with me. I told so many people that I found someone good and after all those years single and all those bad dates that I finally found someone.

And it’s going to end soon. I think he is afraid to tell me he doesn’t want to see me because I know he cares about me but he is so unhappy with everything else in his life and I’m just not enough. I wish I could help him but I can’t and he doesn’t want it. It hurts. It really hurts. It’s a short relationship but we hung out constantly and spoke constantly and I never expected it would end like this. I never expected he’d isolate himself from everyone. It hurts so much.

I really thought I would be able to find love. I hope I have a chance.



Submitted January 18, 2020 at 11:43PM

I feel in love with him probably from the beginning. A bit of a late bloomer at 23 to lose my virginity, but I wasn’t attached just because he took it but because we clicked so well, he was so kind, so handsome, and spoke about the future with me. The way he looked was as if I manifested the exact guy that I would have wanted and then on top of that he was so good to me. He looked me in the eyes and told me how grateful he was to have met me and how much he cared about me. He told me that I am showing him the positives of living where we live since he had just moved here when I met him.It’s not enough. He’s pulled away because he’s so unhappy here. He is so unhappy with everything else that he’s getting cold and wants to be alone. It’s so painful. I was so excited that I finally found someone that I could love and maybe they would fall in love with me. I told so many people that I found someone good and after all those years single and all those bad dates that I finally found someone.And it’s going to end soon. I think he is afraid to tell me he doesn’t want to see me because I know he cares about me but he is so unhappy with everything else in his life and I’m just not enough. I wish I could help him but I can’t and he doesn’t want it. It hurts. It really hurts. It’s a short relationship but we hung out constantly and spoke constantly and I never expected it would end like this. I never expected he’d isolate himself from everyone. It hurts so much.I really thought I would be able to find love. I hope I have a chance.
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