What once was (part 3 final)

I was finally ready to tell Jane how I truly felt about her, after so many talks with a few of my friends and venting about a lot of things but I felt ready. I was home on leave at the time just between Christmas and new years like I have been every year. I sat in my car and started the message, yes I messaged it because she was busy with work and family and could barely get any free time. I told her how her smile is incredible, how even her worst laughs make me smile so much. Telling her how much her and her son meant to me and how I would always treat her the way she deserved to be treated. The way just a simple message from her can turn any day into one of the best days. One quote I would always tell her was that there was only one thing that outweighs every other concern. One thing that will make you give up on everything you thought you knew, every instinct or rational calculation....….Love.

I sent it to her and sat there patiently even though I knew in the back of my head that it wouldn't change much of the situation. She responded eventually and told me how much I meant to her and how she loved me as a friend, how she always wanted me in her life no matter what. It was not the response I had wanted but I was still happy because what she said had meant a lot to me. The Office was our favorite show and the references were relentless when we were together. If you have not seen the show ( which you should ) a man named Jim has strong feelings for Pam even though she is engaged. Pam has been engaged for way longer then she should have been but Jim never gives up on her until one day they are finally together and their love is surreal. I felt like I was in Jim's shoes sometimes so I still didn't give up on Jane, I never wanted to.

One unforgettable day came not to long after my confession, just a couple of months. I was up playing video games at my house having a nice evening and I received a message from Jane. She tells me that her and Cory had a very long much needed discussion about their lives and their son. After a long period of Jane not being treated as well as she should have and her being on thin ice with the relationship, she says that they have worked out a lot of problems and finally decide to get married. I sat there as still as a rock as my mind went blank, I lost feeling of everything and I was speechless. I responded to her the best way that I could but it was incredibly hard, we didn't talk an awful lot that night but what I feared had finally happened. I lied awake all night and I could not fall asleep to save my life and It was like that for days, maybe weeks.

After so much thinking and talking with others I had finally settled down and accepted the fact that what happened had happened and there was nothing I could do to change that. I was very happy for Jane because she was finally getting what she wanted for a very long time from a man she loves very much.

To this day Jane and I are still best friends and we try and talk as much as we can even if its just meme's :). Jane will always be special to me as I am to her and that is good enough for me because she is pretty awesome.

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Thank you to anyone who took the time to read my story and I hope you have enjoyed it.

Submitted November 06, 2019 at 10:29PM

I was finally ready to tell Jane how I truly felt about her, after so many talks with a few of my friends and venting about a lot of things but I felt ready. I was home on leave at the time just between Christmas and new years like I have been every year. I sat in my car and started the message, yes I messaged it because she was busy with work and family and could barely get any free time. I told her how her smile is incredible, how even her worst laughs make me smile so much. Telling her how much her and her son meant to me and how I would always treat her the way she deserved to be treated. The way just a simple message from her can turn any day into one of the best days. One quote I would always tell her was that there was only one thing that outweighs every other concern. One thing that will make you give up on everything you thought you knew, every instinct or rational calculation....….Love.I sent it to her and sat there patiently even though I knew in the back of my head that it wouldn't change much of the situation. She responded eventually and told me how much I meant to her and how she loved me as a friend, how she always wanted me in her life no matter what. It was not the response I had wanted but I was still happy because what she said had meant a lot to me. The Office was our favorite show and the references were relentless when we were together. If you have not seen the show ( which you should ) a man named Jim has strong feelings for Pam even though she is engaged. Pam has been engaged for way longer then she should have been but Jim never gives up on her until one day they are finally together and their love is surreal. I felt like I was in Jim's shoes sometimes so I still didn't give up on Jane, I never wanted to.One unforgettable day came not to long after my confession, just a couple of months. I was up playing video games at my house having a nice evening and I received a message from Jane. She tells me that her and Cory had a very long much needed discussion about their lives and their son. After a long period of Jane not being treated as well as she should have and her being on thin ice with the relationship, she says that they have worked out a lot of problems and finally decide to get married. I sat there as still as a rock as my mind went blank, I lost feeling of everything and I was speechless. I responded to her the best way that I could but it was incredibly hard, we didn't talk an awful lot that night but what I feared had finally happened. I lied awake all night and I could not fall asleep to save my life and It was like that for days, maybe weeks.After so much thinking and talking with others I had finally settled down and accepted the fact that what happened had happened and there was nothing I could do to change that. I was very happy for Jane because she was finally getting what she wanted for a very long time from a man she loves very much.To this day Jane and I are still best friends and we try and talk as much as we can even if its just meme's :). Jane will always be special to me as I am to her and that is good enough for me because she is pretty awesome.​Thank you to anyone who took the time to read my story and I hope you have enjoyed it.