I ate ass and i dont know how to feel about it

I (F19) ate a guys (M18) ass for the first time the other night and I am not really sure how I feel. I have had a crush on him for a little while and he invited me to his house to watch movies and i knew what that meant.

When I got there we smoked some and started watching a movie and things escalated and we started making out and getting undressed. I decided to go down on him (he was laying on his back) cuz that’s just usually the routine I follow. I was sucking his dick for a while and then he grabbed my hand and put it on his asshole. I didn’t really know what I was doing but in bed my first reaction is always just to try and hopefully do a good job. Turning someone else on always turns me on, so I went for it.

Then he kinda lifted his legs up and pushed my face down a little and grabbed his dick away from my hand so again I just kinda went for it. I was licking his asshole and I hadn’t even registered that that was what was happening. I kept at it for a long time because I wanted to give him pleasure and do what he likes. But now that I’ve had a few days to reflect idk how I feel.

In the moment it wasn’t a turn off at all, I had basically no stimulation from him for like 20 minutes and I was still turned on and wet. I was confused on how I was still turned on cuz I always thought I would hate that. But I was.

Except now when I think about it I just feel gross. I don’t like to imagine it. I would probably do it again, like in the moment i really didn’t hate it. I like giving my partner pleasure but the feeling afterwards and reflecting on it, I really don’t enjoy. Is there a different way I could think about it or look at it for me to not feel gross after the fact?



Submitted November 21, 2019 at 12:03AM

I (F19) ate a guys (M18) ass for the first time the other night and I am not really sure how I feel. I have had a crush on him for a little while and he invited me to his house to watch movies and i knew what that meant.When I got there we smoked some and started watching a movie and things escalated and we started making out and getting undressed. I decided to go down on him (he was laying on his back) cuz that’s just usually the routine I follow. I was sucking his dick for a while and then he grabbed my hand and put it on his asshole. I didn’t really know what I was doing but in bed my first reaction is always just to try and hopefully do a good job. Turning someone else on always turns me on, so I went for it.Then he kinda lifted his legs up and pushed my face down a little and grabbed his dick away from my hand so again I just kinda went for it. I was licking his asshole and I hadn’t even registered that that was what was happening. I kept at it for a long time because I wanted to give him pleasure and do what he likes. But now that I’ve had a few days to reflect idk how I feel.In the moment it wasn’t a turn off at all, I had basically no stimulation from him for like 20 minutes and I was still turned on and wet. I was confused on how I was still turned on cuz I always thought I would hate that. But I was.Except now when I think about it I just feel gross. I don’t like to imagine it. I would probably do it again, like in the moment i really didn’t hate it. I like giving my partner pleasure but the feeling afterwards and reflecting on it, I really don’t enjoy. Is there a different way I could think about it or look at it for me to not feel gross after the fact?

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