I'm suffering from mental relationship/sexual assault wounds that make me feel like I'm unloveable and just an object

Hey, i don't even know if this is the right place to post, but seeing as how I'm feeling right now encompassing sexual relationships with people, then Im just gonna do it.

To be honest, I don't even know where to begin. After going through a couple of honestly, quite rough and emotionally draining relationships, I started the new year feeling a bit low on the whole romance front. After experiencing sexual assault pretty recently too, I also feel like sex has become something so unromantic to me, where its mor just an act than it is a connection with someone. I've met à couple of really cool, nice people since then, that I've definitely connected to. Yet I still have this feeling that I'm so unloveable and not worth it, eating away at me. It's gotten to the point where I just feel like there is no hope of me being with someone that actually cares about me, the way I feel that deep down I deserve. I would say that even this time last year I had more confidence in myself, so I'm having such a hard time entering this phase of my life- I've never felt this insecure and self-loathing before, so I'm finding I'm at a loss at how to combat it.

I would say that it stems from my psychical image. Don't get me wrong, I'm by no means out of shape but I'm overweight and food has been my comfort blanket for a while now... Its become the bame of my life and my main reason for believing that no one could willingly attach themselves to me in anymore than a physical way, in the short term. Right now I know I need some advice on how to deal with it- it doesn't help that I'm starting to get to know a guy that I really like and everytime I interact with him I get this crippling fear of rejection. I keep telling myself to just go with it etc, but my anxiety levels are so high and honestly it only makes the self-loathing worse.

Does anyone have any advice on how to soothe relationship and sex ancmxiety, especially when it comes to how you see your self, and your self worth? Not much more I can see on the matter, but yeah, I'm a bit stuck.

Thanks :)



Submitted June 23, 2019 at 12:15AM

Hey, i don't even know if this is the right place to post, but seeing as how I'm feeling right now encompassing sexual relationships with people, then Im just gonna do it.To be honest, I don't even know where to begin. After going through a couple of honestly, quite rough and emotionally draining relationships, I started the new year feeling a bit low on the whole romance front. After experiencing sexual assault pretty recently too, I also feel like sex has become something so unromantic to me, where its mor just an act than it is a connection with someone. I've met à couple of really cool, nice people since then, that I've definitely connected to. Yet I still have this feeling that I'm so unloveable and not worth it, eating away at me. It's gotten to the point where I just feel like there is no hope of me being with someone that actually cares about me, the way I feel that deep down I deserve. I would say that even this time last year I had more confidence in myself, so I'm having such a hard time entering this phase of my life- I've never felt this insecure and self-loathing before, so I'm finding I'm at a loss at how to combat it.I would say that it stems from my psychical image. Don't get me wrong, I'm by no means out of shape but I'm overweight and food has been my comfort blanket for a while now... Its become the bame of my life and my main reason for believing that no one could willingly attach themselves to me in anymore than a physical way, in the short term. Right now I know I need some advice on how to deal with it- it doesn't help that I'm starting to get to know a guy that I really like and everytime I interact with him I get this crippling fear of rejection. I keep telling myself to just go with it etc, but my anxiety levels are so high and honestly it only makes the self-loathing worse.Does anyone have any advice on how to soothe relationship and sex ancmxiety, especially when it comes to how you see your self, and your self worth? Not much more I can see on the matter, but yeah, I'm a bit stuck.Thanks :)
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