My brother is blackmailing me

My brother is 17, almost turning 18, and I am 15. Last year he found a lover letter of mine which I had written a few months before to a boy I liked. I hid it behind a calendar and forgot about it--which is pretty stupid on my part. Anyway, he found it, took a photo of it, and is threatening to expose it to my family and tell them I am gay. He is quite serious about it too. I got scared a few times because we would usually get into arguments and he would then threaten to expose it. Exposing it would not only embarrass the fuck out of me, but it would also mean the death of me because my family is extremely homophobic. I get so angry, and I would get anxiety attacks, but I cannot show my anger to my brother since I am afraid that he would expose it. It is extremely cruel and borderline diabolic; I want to choose the time I would like to come out, and I don't want him to do that. I have tried several time to access his MacBook to go on the Photos app and delete it, but I just could not find it. I have also tried to go on his Google Photos but there was nothing above 2018. So I send this post as a plea for help. I am living in a life surrounded by the constant anxiety about the thought of him leaking that letter and telling my family that I am gay.

TL;DR- My brother found a love letter I wrote to a boy I liked and is constantly threatening me that will expose it to my family and tell them I am gay.

Submitted January 27, 2020 at 12:19AM

My brother is 17, almost turning 18, and I am 15. Last year he found a lover letter of mine which I had written a few months before to a boy I liked. I hid it behind a calendar and forgot about it--which is pretty stupid on my part. Anyway, he found it, took a photo of it, and is threatening to expose it to my family and tell them I am gay. He is quite serious about it too. I got scared a few times because we would usually get into arguments and he would then threaten to expose it. Exposing it would not only embarrass the fuck out of me, but it would also mean the death of me because my family is extremely homophobic. I get so angry, and I would get anxiety attacks, but I cannot show my anger to my brother since I am afraid that he would expose it. It is extremely cruel and borderline diabolic; I want to choose the time I would like to come out, and I don't want him to do that. I have tried several time to access his MacBook to go on the Photos app and delete it, but I just could not find it. I have also tried to go on his Google Photos but there was nothing above 2018. So I send this post as a plea for help. I am living in a life surrounded by the constant anxiety about the thought of him leaking that letter and telling my family that I am gay.TL;DR- My brother found a love letter I wrote to a boy I liked and is constantly threatening me that will expose it to my family and tell them I am gay.