I’m obsessed with sex in a bad way.

To start off I’m (20F) not obsessed with sex as in being a sex addict. Thank you for taking time to read :-)

But I put a lot of value on sex and to me, I only have sex with people who I have feelings for / who I would like to be in a relationship with. Ever since I was a kid (11/12) I’ve been pretty sexual in general which doesn’t help that I’m so highly emotional towards sex. When I was 16 I was pretty sexual still, and hadn’t done anything so I was really curious and wanting to try, I was a pretty big attention seeker (I think I was extremely insecure with myself) and would send lots of provocative pictures to lots of guys.

I met this guy (mentioning him as he was my biggest life changer) when I was 16, well we were friends prior but as bad as it sounds we started to speak more after I started sending him random booty pictures (I know it’s terrible). I wanted to do sexual stuff so badly and in the beginning this guy wanted to go on dates etc. but I’d always just ask to go to his house and hang out and I made the whole relationship sexual. (And pretty much fucked it with my immaturity)

Anyways fast forward 6 months, we never ended up having sex but we did oral and hand etc. but I developed feelings for him and of course he didn’t have feelings for me (my fault). I still was pretty messed up in terms of my obsession with sex, I was a virgin and I wanted him to take my virginity, only him. (He ended up being my first, we’re still together ://)

But my biggest issue now is I’m obsessed with the number of past sex partners guys have had, and the duration of their relationships, the feelings involved, basically every aspect, and I hate it, it makes me feel sick, i hate thinking about the guy I’m with, with past girls and my mind goes to crazy places. I can’t stand the fact they’ve had sex with other people, it makes me physically nauseous to think about. And to think about guys who have sex without having feelings for the other person makes me sick. I literally can’t stop obsessing over anything sex related, I’m not really sexual anymore but sex still kind of revolves around my life and it drives me insane.



Submitted January 06, 2020 at 11:26PM

To start off I’m (20F) not obsessed with sex as in being a sex addict. Thank you for taking time to read :-)But I put a lot of value on sex and to me, I only have sex with people who I have feelings for / who I would like to be in a relationship with. Ever since I was a kid (11/12) I’ve been pretty sexual in general which doesn’t help that I’m so highly emotional towards sex. When I was 16 I was pretty sexual still, and hadn’t done anything so I was really curious and wanting to try, I was a pretty big attention seeker (I think I was extremely insecure with myself) and would send lots of provocative pictures to lots of guys.I met this guy (mentioning him as he was my biggest life changer) when I was 16, well we were friends prior but as bad as it sounds we started to speak more after I started sending him random booty pictures (I know it’s terrible). I wanted to do sexual stuff so badly and in the beginning this guy wanted to go on dates etc. but I’d always just ask to go to his house and hang out and I made the whole relationship sexual. (And pretty much fucked it with my immaturity)Anyways fast forward 6 months, we never ended up having sex but we did oral and hand etc. but I developed feelings for him and of course he didn’t have feelings for me (my fault). I still was pretty messed up in terms of my obsession with sex, I was a virgin and I wanted him to take my virginity, only him. (He ended up being my first, we’re still together ://)But my biggest issue now is I’m obsessed with the number of past sex partners guys have had, and the duration of their relationships, the feelings involved, basically every aspect, and I hate it, it makes me feel sick, i hate thinking about the guy I’m with, with past girls and my mind goes to crazy places. I can’t stand the fact they’ve had sex with other people, it makes me physically nauseous to think about. And to think about guys who have sex without having feelings for the other person makes me sick. I literally can’t stop obsessing over anything sex related, I’m not really sexual anymore but sex still kind of revolves around my life and it drives me insane.
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