Hooked up with kids father

So I recently hooked up with my kids father. I regret doing it. I now feel really depressed and have a lot of anxiety.

My kids father has a girlfriend whom I can’t stand. However he calls me all the time and actually comes over a lot. We live about 300 - 400 feet away from each other. He tells me he loves me while she is sitting right there however I never respond to him when he says that. Well recently he has been calling me a awful lot lately. Last weekend he came over and the kids were not here he tried rubbing on my butt I sat up and told him no. So he then goes to put his hands down my shirt twice. I informed him it was not going to happen.

Well on 11/6 he called me at 3:51 am his girlfriend just left for work and he tells me to unlock the door. Stupid me unlocks the door we basically had sex and he left and went to work and I got up to get ready for work. He still kept calling me a lot. I haven’t messed with him in about 6 years and it now has me really depressed. My birthday was the 8th. Which so his his girlfriends and I haven’t really seen him or heard much from him since that morning. I did tell him to let me be for the day because I was having a lot of anxiety and crying. Because around my birthday 12 years ago is when I found out he was cheating on me for a whole year and everything just really upsets me at that time.

I seen him today when I was coming home he was standing outside taking to his dad and his girlfriend was there she just got home from work and he looked at me but tried to make it seem like he wasn’t. Idk why it hurts me so much and idk how to move pass this. I wish I would have never unlocked that door it brought back to much hurt that I thought had been forgotten or that I have forgave him.



Submitted November 11, 2019 at 11:47PM

So I recently hooked up with my kids father. I regret doing it. I now feel really depressed and have a lot of anxiety.My kids father has a girlfriend whom I can’t stand. However he calls me all the time and actually comes over a lot. We live about 300 - 400 feet away from each other. He tells me he loves me while she is sitting right there however I never respond to him when he says that. Well recently he has been calling me a awful lot lately. Last weekend he came over and the kids were not here he tried rubbing on my butt I sat up and told him no. So he then goes to put his hands down my shirt twice. I informed him it was not going to happen.Well on 11/6 he called me at 3:51 am his girlfriend just left for work and he tells me to unlock the door. Stupid me unlocks the door we basically had sex and he left and went to work and I got up to get ready for work. He still kept calling me a lot. I haven’t messed with him in about 6 years and it now has me really depressed. My birthday was the 8th. Which so his his girlfriends and I haven’t really seen him or heard much from him since that morning. I did tell him to let me be for the day because I was having a lot of anxiety and crying. Because around my birthday 12 years ago is when I found out he was cheating on me for a whole year and everything just really upsets me at that time.I seen him today when I was coming home he was standing outside taking to his dad and his girlfriend was there she just got home from work and he looked at me but tried to make it seem like he wasn’t. Idk why it hurts me so much and idk how to move pass this. I wish I would have never unlocked that door it brought back to much hurt that I thought had been forgotten or that I have forgave him.
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