Me m22 with f20 how bad of a fuck up is this

So last night my gf went through my phone while I was asleep for the second time ever we’ve been together for a year or so, the first time she went on it she found stuff from my PAST and got mad about it and now she saw that I had googled a girls name that I fucked 3 years ago (I had a wet dream was horny she posts provocative pictures I’m sure you guys know why I looked it up) she had me unfollow her on Instagram a few months back and she’s also private on there which is why I had to google anyway I didn’t find anything and just dropped it however never deleted the browser my gf confronted me about it and said that this is disloyal that even tho I didn’t do it I acted on the thought and I would never have told her had she not gone through my phone my answer was I took a step in the wrong direction didn’t find anything and turned back before what I assumed was too late and that If I really wanted to do it I could’ve had my friends send pictures of her which I didn’t. She says that this affects her trust for me and I said that she never really did since she goes through my phone behind my back she also asked me how I would feel if roles were reversed and I told her I don’t need to do that because I could understand why she was upset I also explained how this was my first real relationship and how I don’t think about everything I’m doing but hindsight is 20/20 and I knew what I did was wrong right after I googled her name and that I’m still learning but I would never cheat on her or talk to other girls or anything close to that. Now she’s saying she wants a couple of days to think and that we shouldn’t talk in the meantime. We do love each other I do treat her very well I don’t see this as that huge of a deal but I understand why it bothers her. Thoughts and advice please

Submitted May 11, 2020 at 12:10AM

So last night my gf went through my phone while I was asleep for the second time ever we’ve been together for a year or so, the first time she went on it she found stuff from my PAST and got mad about it and now she saw that I had googled a girls name that I fucked 3 years ago (I had a wet dream was horny she posts provocative pictures I’m sure you guys know why I looked it up) she had me unfollow her on Instagram a few months back and she’s also private on there which is why I had to google anyway I didn’t find anything and just dropped it however never deleted the browser my gf confronted me about it and said that this is disloyal that even tho I didn’t do it I acted on the thought and I would never have told her had she not gone through my phone my answer was I took a step in the wrong direction didn’t find anything and turned back before what I assumed was too late and that If I really wanted to do it I could’ve had my friends send pictures of her which I didn’t. She says that this affects her trust for me and I said that she never really did since she goes through my phone behind my back she also asked me how I would feel if roles were reversed and I told her I don’t need to do that because I could understand why she was upset I also explained how this was my first real relationship and how I don’t think about everything I’m doing but hindsight is 20/20 and I knew what I did was wrong right after I googled her name and that I’m still learning but I would never cheat on her or talk to other girls or anything close to that. Now she’s saying she wants a couple of days to think and that we shouldn’t talk in the meantime. We do love each other I do treat her very well I don’t see this as that huge of a deal but I understand why it bothers her. Thoughts and advice please