I (22f) lost all my friends and I don't know how to build long lasting friendships.

I used tinder as an outlet to find people who have cars to take me out more. I had so much fun on my tinder dates. But none of them worked out more than a year. Me and my last tinder date just broke it off this afternoon (refer to previous post). I used apps like bumblebff to find other females to meet up in my area but most of the girls live over 30 miles away. I don't have a car or a license. I don't know how to drive. But I'm going to try to make that happen this year because me not knowing how to drive is really holding me back. For the time being, I don't know what to do. I'm thinking about installing a dating app again and finding more dates but dating is stupid to me. From my experience, nobody is going to be there for the long run. And I think I'm choosing the right guys when I do background checks and when they have college degrees and seem to be cool people. But they just want to fuck and they will ditch you for another girl if given the chance. I've tried meetup groups. I went to one in Madison Heights which is 20 miles away from me but it was a singing/songwriting meet up which is an interest of mine. That meetup was really bad though. And I paid like $60 to get there and back since I don't drive. My zipcode is 48036. There's nothing going on in my area on meetup except for wicca teachings, yoga, and meditation and spirituality which I'm not interested in getting into. For now, it seems like in order for me to have fun, I have to go through the repetitive process of renewing my permit, taking drivers lessons (which cost $300 for 10 hours) since no one is willing to teach me how to drive, and then still not being able to drive because I still suck. I don't know why I suck so badly at driving. I may have undiagnosed adhd which is just another thing to put on my list of problems. I'm trying to get out of this rut this year. 2019 was kind of suckish. I don't expect 2020 to be better but I'm trying to do what I can to make shit happen. But I have major depression and I usually stay in the house all day. I think it's very important for me to get out more. But how can I do this if I live in an area of not too much activity? How do I make friends without the resources to do so? If I kill myself, would it be justifiable?

Tl;dr: I don't know how to make friends without the resources and environment to do so.

Submitted January 08, 2020 at 12:10AM

I used tinder as an outlet to find people who have cars to take me out more. I had so much fun on my tinder dates. But none of them worked out more than a year. Me and my last tinder date just broke it off this afternoon (refer to previous post). I used apps like bumblebff to find other females to meet up in my area but most of the girls live over 30 miles away. I don't have a car or a license. I don't know how to drive. But I'm going to try to make that happen this year because me not knowing how to drive is really holding me back. For the time being, I don't know what to do. I'm thinking about installing a dating app again and finding more dates but dating is stupid to me. From my experience, nobody is going to be there for the long run. And I think I'm choosing the right guys when I do background checks and when they have college degrees and seem to be cool people. But they just want to fuck and they will ditch you for another girl if given the chance. I've tried meetup groups. I went to one in Madison Heights which is 20 miles away from me but it was a singing/songwriting meet up which is an interest of mine. That meetup was really bad though. And I paid like $60 to get there and back since I don't drive. My zipcode is 48036. There's nothing going on in my area on meetup except for wicca teachings, yoga, and meditation and spirituality which I'm not interested in getting into. For now, it seems like in order for me to have fun, I have to go through the repetitive process of renewing my permit, taking drivers lessons (which cost $300 for 10 hours) since no one is willing to teach me how to drive, and then still not being able to drive because I still suck. I don't know why I suck so badly at driving. I may have undiagnosed adhd which is just another thing to put on my list of problems. I'm trying to get out of this rut this year. 2019 was kind of suckish. I don't expect 2020 to be better but I'm trying to do what I can to make shit happen. But I have major depression and I usually stay in the house all day. I think it's very important for me to get out more. But how can I do this if I live in an area of not too much activity? How do I make friends without the resources to do so? If I kill myself, would it be justifiable?Tl;dr: I don't know how to make friends without the resources and environment to do so.