Hope i can find some help here from an experienced people :).

Hello dear users of this community. I am 22 years old guy from Valencia (Spain). And i am writing this with a very difficult feelings, i am an introvert, so it's really, really difficult for me to share this kind of thoughts with people, even in internet, but i really need some help and advices. And you can't imagine how many time's i tried to write it here, untill i finally found myself trapped in this thoughts and i just need to express them. I believe many people will find this post funny or consider me crazy/dumb/etc, but i hope there will be people that can really understand me and try to help :D. Anyway, thank you to everyone for your time and please, excuse me for my bad grammar, sadly, english is not my mother tongue and as much as i want to write without mistakes, i just can't avoid them.

The reason i actually write and try to express myself here, is because closest people i know, can't understand me and i feel dumb to go and find a psychologist for this, so i decided, the best way is to try and get opinion's from the people, that may be experienced same things and managed to deal with them.

So, basically the main reason i am here, is that i fell in love with the girl. But not the girl that i know in reall life, but the one i've meet in internet. I've meet her accidently and everything was fine, untill a few mounth ago i just caught myself on thoughs, that, damn, i am actually loving her. Same feelings i had to my ex girlfriend and never experienced them since we broke up 2 years ago. The worst thing is, that this girl is famous and it's extremely difficult to contact with her or even meet her somewhere. I will try to avoid mentioning her name, but to understand how this happened i will after all, make a lot of hints to you and fans of that person will know who i am talking about very fast.

So, the girl. That girl guys... Few month ago i just understood how perfect she is. I can't stop thinking about her and that's drive's me mad, because i know that, there is not a single chanse something can grow up from this. People call it, i believe a toxic relations, toxic love maybe? I am not sure. I've tried to forget her, deleted all my social medias, so not a single information pop up about her and make me think about her, but even then, i just couldn't stop thinking about her, even in sleeping i might once a while have a dream involving her. That's crazy, i know :D.

You can't imagine, how many times now, i watch her pictures, watch her interviews, non stop, over and over, because i feel so related to her situations in life, i feel her completely, understand her completely and love her insainly. It's not just the way she look's, yes, for me she is stunning, very beautifull, but that's inner she that make's me love her.

And i need your help guys, i need to stop this somehow, i know down inside myself, that this has to stop, because it's has no future at all, but at the same time, all this helped me to fight this daily bad feelings, depression and sadness i have, helped me to find myself and start living properly. And i am scared if i deal with this, my life will become a complete grey mess of depression and sadness as it was before i meet her.

I will understand if people laugh at this, if you call me actually dumb and a "kid", but i hope some of you will understand me. Anyway, kid or not, I am just a person that can't understand his feelings and can't understand what the f*ck is happening with him. Hope there is some psychologist over here that can kinda understand me and give me a good advices.

Much love to you guys and thank you for reading this. It was really hard for me to try explain myself and i believe with my english it will be even difficult to understand for you, but i hope i can get some help from here. Thank you again!

TL;DR: please try to not laugh and take this seriously :D.

Submitted December 11, 2019 at 12:12AM

Hello dear users of this community. I am 22 years old guy from Valencia (Spain). And i am writing this with a very difficult feelings, i am an introvert, so it's really, really difficult for me to share this kind of thoughts with people, even in internet, but i really need some help and advices. And you can't imagine how many time's i tried to write it here, untill i finally found myself trapped in this thoughts and i just need to express them. I believe many people will find this post funny or consider me crazy/dumb/etc, but i hope there will be people that can really understand me and try to help :D. Anyway, thank you to everyone for your time and please, excuse me for my bad grammar, sadly, english is not my mother tongue and as much as i want to write without mistakes, i just can't avoid them.The reason i actually write and try to express myself here, is because closest people i know, can't understand me and i feel dumb to go and find a psychologist for this, so i decided, the best way is to try and get opinion's from the people, that may be experienced same things and managed to deal with them.So, basically the main reason i am here, is that i fell in love with the girl. But not the girl that i know in reall life, but the one i've meet in internet. I've meet her accidently and everything was fine, untill a few mounth ago i just caught myself on thoughs, that, damn, i am actually loving her. Same feelings i had to my ex girlfriend and never experienced them since we broke up 2 years ago. The worst thing is, that this girl is famous and it's extremely difficult to contact with her or even meet her somewhere. I will try to avoid mentioning her name, but to understand how this happened i will after all, make a lot of hints to you and fans of that person will know who i am talking about very fast.So, the girl. That girl guys... Few month ago i just understood how perfect she is. I can't stop thinking about her and that's drive's me mad, because i know that, there is not a single chanse something can grow up from this. People call it, i believe a toxic relations, toxic love maybe? I am not sure. I've tried to forget her, deleted all my social medias, so not a single information pop up about her and make me think about her, but even then, i just couldn't stop thinking about her, even in sleeping i might once a while have a dream involving her. That's crazy, i know :D.You can't imagine, how many times now, i watch her pictures, watch her interviews, non stop, over and over, because i feel so related to her situations in life, i feel her completely, understand her completely and love her insainly. It's not just the way she look's, yes, for me she is stunning, very beautifull, but that's inner she that make's me love her.And i need your help guys, i need to stop this somehow, i know down inside myself, that this has to stop, because it's has no future at all, but at the same time, all this helped me to fight this daily bad feelings, depression and sadness i have, helped me to find myself and start living properly. And i am scared if i deal with this, my life will become a complete grey mess of depression and sadness as it was before i meet her.I will understand if people laugh at this, if you call me actually dumb and a "kid", but i hope some of you will understand me. Anyway, kid or not, I am just a person that can't understand his feelings and can't understand what the f*ck is happening with him. Hope there is some psychologist over here that can kinda understand me and give me a good advices.Much love to you guys and thank you for reading this. It was really hard for me to try explain myself and i believe with my english it will be even difficult to understand for you, but i hope i can get some help from here. Thank you again!TL;DR: please try to not laugh and take this seriously :D.