15 m with dedication

A while back my girlfriend of over 2 years broke up with me. We werent some ordinary teenager couple. We hate pda, we hated really anything any other things that kids did. She broke up with me out of random. Ive been on vacation for about a month and she told me she was crying from missing me so much the first week i was gone. The night before she broke up with me she was being all lovey and mushy and normal with me. Then the next morning she broke up with me. It was just really out of random. The first couple days i was basically a vegtable, not eating, blah blah. She broke up with me because she wanted me to not rely on her for being happy. She saved me from suicide btw. Ive gotten happier as the month has gone by but recently ive gotten really sad again. I wrote in a journal the first couple days but that can only go so far. I just felt empty. I know she misses me. A couple days ago i wrote out this 5 page note thing. Which initally started as a suicide note, but i though about my family and everything for once, which my now ex told me how to do and helped me with. Its just saying how much shes impacted me in life. But now my plan is, im just going to go to her house and recite the whole thing and ask for a second chance. I want to bring a box of chocolates cause if we were dating and i did so she would find it cheesy, stupid, and funny and she would like it. So im planning on doing that, i can also make a reference to the song "Heart Shaped Box" by Nirvana. Inside the envelope is a hot wheels car (inside joke with us) and a turtle ring from my dead great aunt. Everyone that I have told about my plan thinks it will work. I have a huge amount of hope that it will work. I just wanted to hear all of your opinions on it.

Submitted August 27, 2019 at 12:08AM

A while back my girlfriend of over 2 years broke up with me. We werent some ordinary teenager couple. We hate pda, we hated really anything any other things that kids did. She broke up with me out of random. Ive been on vacation for about a month and she told me she was crying from missing me so much the first week i was gone. The night before she broke up with me she was being all lovey and mushy and normal with me. Then the next morning she broke up with me. It was just really out of random. The first couple days i was basically a vegtable, not eating, blah blah. She broke up with me because she wanted me to not rely on her for being happy. She saved me from suicide btw. Ive gotten happier as the month has gone by but recently ive gotten really sad again. I wrote in a journal the first couple days but that can only go so far. I just felt empty. I know she misses me. A couple days ago i wrote out this 5 page note thing. Which initally started as a suicide note, but i though about my family and everything for once, which my now ex told me how to do and helped me with. Its just saying how much shes impacted me in life. But now my plan is, im just going to go to her house and recite the whole thing and ask for a second chance. I want to bring a box of chocolates cause if we were dating and i did so she would find it cheesy, stupid, and funny and she would like it. So im planning on doing that, i can also make a reference to the song "Heart Shaped Box" by Nirvana. Inside the envelope is a hot wheels car (inside joke with us) and a turtle ring from my dead great aunt. Everyone that I have told about my plan thinks it will work. I have a huge amount of hope that it will work. I just wanted to hear all of your opinions on it.