Divorce because lack of trust??

My husband (32) and myself (27) have been married for just over a year. Together for two.

I need to start off by saying that I do in fact love him, a lot, and I know he cares about me. No relationship /marriage is perfect, but this issue digs at me. It's literally consuming me.

I don't trust him.

We're still young, and we don't have kids. My worry is that he will most definitely cheat on me at some point in our marriage. Prior to us dating, he's never been faithful to any girl he's dated. He's the type that would sleep around, a lot. He told me this because he wanted to come clean and swore he changed. He wanted to be better.

He's also a narcissist. He refuses to admit it, but his ego is enormous. He rarely apologizes, he thinks highly of himself (I think to make up for his lack of self esteem as a child) and is the most charming man you'll ever meet.

I don't think he's cheated on me. I do, however, think he's actively chatting with pretty women to boost his self esteem. I don't think he's doing anything wrong per say... But I do know him well enough to know that he's definitely showing a flirtier /charming side.

I've looked through his phone before and came clean about it. In looking through his phone, I saw him texting an instagram model, dming that her photo (of her naked) is beautiful, and that he can't comment or his wife (me) would crucify him.

Also, I've seen he's deleted some conversations with a girl I was suspicious about. They hung out and he didn't tell me about it while I was away from work.

He never leaves his phone out of his site. Anytime he goes to the washroom. To take the dog out. Wash the dishes. It never leaves his site. If he's emotionally cheating, I would have a hard time finding out. Also, I asked him to show me his phone before and he freaked out. I had no right to ask. Privacy is everything. I have to blindly trust him, and his past actions have no merit on this marriage.

When we got married, I was going to go back to university. I quit that to make things work (whole other story)

We're relocating because of his job.

I just feel like I'm sacrificing a lot for someone I ultimately really don't trust.

This has now become an issue I can't even bring up because it just repeats itself. He hates it when I bring it up and just gets angry.

Am I crazy for wanting to divorce him on a hunch? I absolutely adore him but constantly worrying about what he's doing on his phone (he's addicted to his phone) is just anxiety I don't want to worry about

Submitted September 29, 2020 at 12:03AM

My husband (32) and myself (27) have been married for just over a year. Together for two.I need to start off by saying that I do in fact love him, a lot, and I know he cares about me. No relationship /marriage is perfect, but this issue digs at me. It's literally consuming me.I don't trust him.We're still young, and we don't have kids. My worry is that he will most definitely cheat on me at some point in our marriage. Prior to us dating, he's never been faithful to any girl he's dated. He's the type that would sleep around, a lot. He told me this because he wanted to come clean and swore he changed. He wanted to be better.He's also a narcissist. He refuses to admit it, but his ego is enormous. He rarely apologizes, he thinks highly of himself (I think to make up for his lack of self esteem as a child) and is the most charming man you'll ever meet.I don't think he's cheated on me. I do, however, think he's actively chatting with pretty women to boost his self esteem. I don't think he's doing anything wrong per say... But I do know him well enough to know that he's definitely showing a flirtier /charming side.I've looked through his phone before and came clean about it. In looking through his phone, I saw him texting an instagram model, dming that her photo (of her naked) is beautiful, and that he can't comment or his wife (me) would crucify him.Also, I've seen he's deleted some conversations with a girl I was suspicious about. They hung out and he didn't tell me about it while I was away from work.He never leaves his phone out of his site. Anytime he goes to the washroom. To take the dog out. Wash the dishes. It never leaves his site. If he's emotionally cheating, I would have a hard time finding out. Also, I asked him to show me his phone before and he freaked out. I had no right to ask. Privacy is everything. I have to blindly trust him, and his past actions have no merit on this marriage.When we got married, I was going to go back to university. I quit that to make things work (whole other story)We're relocating because of his job.I just feel like I'm sacrificing a lot for someone I ultimately really don't trust.This has now become an issue I can't even bring up because it just repeats itself. He hates it when I bring it up and just gets angry.Am I crazy for wanting to divorce him on a hunch? I absolutely adore him but constantly worrying about what he's doing on his phone (he's addicted to his phone) is just anxiety I don't want to worry about