Love

"Hey, we've been talking for a while. And i kinda like you. We should date maybe?" She said. Random woman who he had been talking to. Random woman to fill the void. A big gap, no amount of success or happiness could fill. Each day was same, empty, grey and silent. The colours that once painted this world vivid had all disappeared, wiped off with his own hands, destroyed by his own demise, destroyed by his inabity to act. There when the void was about to filled, when another tried upon his heart, he realised, that love is present, always and throughout him. He muttered the words of love, words of sacrifice," I shall love in perpetuity.i shall love till i forget what love is not. I dont need to let go. For love stays in my heart, not in my mouth or in the state of my being. Let me be alive or dead, walking or immobile, happy or unhappy, i will love. And when her time comes, let her marry a man who keeps her happy, let her live a satisfied life. Let her walk the path how she finds fit. Let her live. For i shall die in the shadows, and i shall accept death with love. Death is certain and one day it shall fall upon her too as it shall fall upon me. When she walks the stairs of heaven, let god tell her, i was the one who loved her truly and most. and be certain that she shall walk the stairs of heaven. For i shall be the bearer of her sins. Throughout her life time, all the ants she steps on shall be through my feet. The words she speaks shall be through my mouth. her actions be made through me, so that she never sins. Let that be my eternal sacrifice. My eternal sacrifice for you, i will be the bearer of your sins." Ode to my inability to love you. Ode to my incompetence. To my eternal love, my life.

Ps english isnt my first language. And i didnt bother to check what i wrote and how i wrote. Since i was a teen i had no one to talk to so i write to express myself, but what was written is meaningless if no one reads it. So i hope even if its a single person that reads this.. they understand what i mean, or maybe not understand. I never wrote this to sound artistic or have any literarian skill. O just wrote this so there is atleast one person who heard me. Its hard keeping it all in.

Submitted December 30, 2019 at 11:58PM

"Hey, we've been talking for a while. And i kinda like you. We should date maybe?" She said. Random woman who he had been talking to. Random woman to fill the void. A big gap, no amount of success or happiness could fill. Each day was same, empty, grey and silent. The colours that once painted this world vivid had all disappeared, wiped off with his own hands, destroyed by his own demise, destroyed by his inabity to act. There when the void was about to filled, when another tried upon his heart, he realised, that love is present, always and throughout him. He muttered the words of love, words of sacrifice," I shall love in perpetuity.i shall love till i forget what love is not. I dont need to let go. For love stays in my heart, not in my mouth or in the state of my being. Let me be alive or dead, walking or immobile, happy or unhappy, i will love. And when her time comes, let her marry a man who keeps her happy, let her live a satisfied life. Let her walk the path how she finds fit. Let her live. For i shall die in the shadows, and i shall accept death with love. Death is certain and one day it shall fall upon her too as it shall fall upon me. When she walks the stairs of heaven, let god tell her, i was the one who loved her truly and most. and be certain that she shall walk the stairs of heaven. For i shall be the bearer of her sins. Throughout her life time, all the ants she steps on shall be through my feet. The words she speaks shall be through my mouth. her actions be made through me, so that she never sins. Let that be my eternal sacrifice. My eternal sacrifice for you, i will be the bearer of your sins." Ode to my inability to love you. Ode to my incompetence. To my eternal love, my life.Ps english isnt my first language. And i didnt bother to check what i wrote and how i wrote. Since i was a teen i had no one to talk to so i write to express myself, but what was written is meaningless if no one reads it. So i hope even if its a single person that reads this.. they understand what i mean, or maybe not understand. I never wrote this to sound artistic or have any literarian skill. O just wrote this so there is atleast one person who heard me. Its hard keeping it all in.