I'm losing hope in love

Hello to whoever reads this. I once loved a girl and I'm convinced I will not love anyone else that hard again. We dated for 3 years. We were a perfect match, we were what people could call a 'real couple' and I can say that I had the time of my life with her. Sure we had our fights and disagreements but nothing that we couldn't overcome. I dare to say she was the one. As we were 2 years into the Relationship she had to move away from me because of her university and well we did make long-distance work... for a bit. Then came all the insecurities, arguments and fights that anyone that has had a long-distance relationship knows about. It brought up both of the 'traumas' we had from our pasts. Me with jealousy and missing her and her not being a long-relationship type girl. Anyway we started getting in bigger fights and drifting apart and when it came to it we decided that it was dragging is both down in very bad ways and so we started talking about breaking up because it was starting to affect her performance at school and my moods and take on life on a daily basis. A few weeks go by and we do break up. I can't deal with it, I cried my heart out, I could not eat I could not sleep and I really was thinking that the woman I would spend the rest of my life with was gone, forever. Today, 2 years after we broke up I tried getting out there but I could never commit fully to the relationship because I don't feel it like I did and know I know that that relationship, has probably ruined my future ones and thus breaking each day my ever lasting hope of finding love again.

Submitted August 18, 2019 at 11:58PM

Hello to whoever reads this. I once loved a girl and I'm convinced I will not love anyone else that hard again. We dated for 3 years. We were a perfect match, we were what people could call a 'real couple' and I can say that I had the time of my life with her. Sure we had our fights and disagreements but nothing that we couldn't overcome. I dare to say she was the one. As we were 2 years into the Relationship she had to move away from me because of her university and well we did make long-distance work... for a bit. Then came all the insecurities, arguments and fights that anyone that has had a long-distance relationship knows about. It brought up both of the 'traumas' we had from our pasts. Me with jealousy and missing her and her not being a long-relationship type girl. Anyway we started getting in bigger fights and drifting apart and when it came to it we decided that it was dragging is both down in very bad ways and so we started talking about breaking up because it was starting to affect her performance at school and my moods and take on life on a daily basis. A few weeks go by and we do break up. I can't deal with it, I cried my heart out, I could not eat I could not sleep and I really was thinking that the woman I would spend the rest of my life with was gone, forever. Today, 2 years after we broke up I tried getting out there but I could never commit fully to the relationship because I don't feel it like I did and know I know that that relationship, has probably ruined my future ones and thus breaking each day my ever lasting hope of finding love again.