Time...

I know in my earlier posts I said all great things take time... but back then I was kind of hoping to at least be able to develop some kind of friendship with you. We're now coming up to the 2 month mark when we first met. In these last 2 months I have learned so much. So much about myself, so much about my new-found friendships with other people, and so much on how to find out who I really am. I will tell you this much on what I know on who I am; I care deeply for those who are around me, I treat my friends in the same way I treat you, and I am able to see who's worth keeping in my life.

The difference between my new-found friendships and you are quite intimidating... the main difference is - is that they actually respond to me and interact with me, and we have good deep conversations about our personal problems in life and we talk about what's going on inside our heads and let it all out. But you, you don't respond, you don't let me know what's going on, and you don't seem at all interested in becoming a friend at all. I mean, if we were going to go down the path of a legitimate relationship, we need to be at least friends first right? But you seem like you don't want that to happen. In these last 2 months we've only hung out about 7 times, and the times we have hung out is probably no more than 2 hours.

It screws me up in the head and heart because, just when I'm feeling like I'm done and want to move on you show a little interest, but I'm starting to feel like that could be out of pitty. Because I know you see the messages I send you. You have to at least know that I'm trying to be your friend.

And it's just not working...

I have a big heart... and because I've been trying so hard and getting no where, my heart aches. I am ready to move on. I'm not saying that I don't like you anymore, or that I wont hang out with you if you ask for it, but if I meet someone that I like and is ready to put in the same effort as I put into them, I am going to go for it. Because I'm ready for something real. I've been ready. Life is too short to have a lonely heart.



Submitted July 22, 2019 at 10:57PM

I know in my earlier posts I said all great things take time... but back then I was kind of hoping to at least be able to develop some kind of friendship with you. We're now coming up to the 2 month mark when we first met. In these last 2 months I have learned so much. So much about myself, so much about my new-found friendships with other people, and so much on how to find out who I really am. I will tell you this much on what I know on who I am; I care deeply for those who are around me, I treat my friends in the same way I treat you, and I am able to see who's worth keeping in my life.The difference between my new-found friendships and you are quite intimidating... the main difference is - is that they actually respond to me and interact with me, and we have good deep conversations about our personal problems in life and we talk about what's going on inside our heads and let it all out. But you, you don't respond, you don't let me know what's going on, and you don't seem at all interested in becoming a friend at all. I mean, if we were going to go down the path of a legitimate relationship, we need to be at least friends first right? But you seem like you don't want that to happen. In these last 2 months we've only hung out about 7 times, and the times we have hung out is probably no more than 2 hours.It screws me up in the head and heart because, just when I'm feeling like I'm done and want to move on you show a little interest, but I'm starting to feel like that could be out of pitty. Because I know you see the messages I send you. You have to at least know that I'm trying to be your friend.And it's just not working...I have a big heart... and because I've been trying so hard and getting no where, my heart aches. I am ready to move on. I'm not saying that I don't like you anymore, or that I wont hang out with you if you ask for it, but if I meet someone that I like and is ready to put in the same effort as I put into them, I am going to go for it. Because I'm ready for something real. I've been ready. Life is too short to have a lonely heart.
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