He's going alone on vacations. How do I deal with jealously?

I'm (31F) seeing a guy (28M) since last November. We're not in a relationship but we are exclusive. Last December he went in vacations with his friend. We lived a situation that have hurt me deeply. We talked all the time the whole time he was in vacations, texting in the day and talking in the phone at night. He met a British girl on the hotel for less than 48 hours and he sent me a Pic of him with her. When he was coming back to his city he was so sad, and as we were talking he told me he kinda had a crush on that girl and they kissed.

I felt so brokenhearted. I still feel hurt about that but time and multiple conversations with him made me heal most of it.

The thing is, he just told me he is going in vacations for a month to the Caribbean in September. Since he told me about that I have been so anxious. The Caribbean it's a party place for a guy that goes alone and I'm so scared this gonna happen again. These six months we have developed a deep bond and he is always telling me how special I am for him, but I just can't help to feel so insecure about it.

I plan to have a conversation with him prior to his journey. I have never been jealous towards a guy, but since this happened in December, with him has been completely different. I feel so insecure he gonna be with someone else. He knows he messed up with me, so when he is out he is always texting me and sending pics. He even sends a voice record when he's coming back home. I never asked for it but I guess he understands I'll feel insecure.

I don't wanna be toxic or controlling, I want him to enjoy his vacations since he's so stressed because of work, and also because I don't wanna be that person. I want him to have a happy holiday, but how can I deal with this insecurities. I don't wanna be anxious that entire month either.



Submitted May 27, 2022 at 12:05AM

I'm (31F) seeing a guy (28M) since last November. We're not in a relationship but we are exclusive. Last December he went in vacations with his friend. We lived a situation that have hurt me deeply. We talked all the time the whole time he was in vacations, texting in the day and talking in the phone at night. He met a British girl on the hotel for less than 48 hours and he sent me a Pic of him with her. When he was coming back to his city he was so sad, and as we were talking he told me he kinda had a crush on that girl and they kissed.I felt so brokenhearted. I still feel hurt about that but time and multiple conversations with him made me heal most of it.The thing is, he just told me he is going in vacations for a month to the Caribbean in September. Since he told me about that I have been so anxious. The Caribbean it's a party place for a guy that goes alone and I'm so scared this gonna happen again. These six months we have developed a deep bond and he is always telling me how special I am for him, but I just can't help to feel so insecure about it.I plan to have a conversation with him prior to his journey. I have never been jealous towards a guy, but since this happened in December, with him has been completely different. I feel so insecure he gonna be with someone else. He knows he messed up with me, so when he is out he is always texting me and sending pics. He even sends a voice record when he's coming back home. I never asked for it but I guess he understands I'll feel insecure.I don't wanna be toxic or controlling, I want him to enjoy his vacations since he's so stressed because of work, and also because I don't wanna be that person. I want him to have a happy holiday, but how can I deal with this insecurities. I don't wanna be anxious that entire month either.
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