seeking advice for trying something new and spontaneous

I've (f) been in a relationship with my partner (m) for about two years. I'm always shy in the beginning sexually, and so the sexual advances he made in the beginning kind of weren't received well? or rather, my response wasn't very encouraging. last year I got comfortable enough to be ready to be my normal frisky self. but by that time, I think the "rejection" I gave early on in the relationship kind of made him shut down. ever since then I've been making advances through text whether it's sexual conversation, pictures, etc., and he just never really has fed into it. So finally I kinda got fed up, communicated my feelings a few times. finally he told me last week, that I don't present myself as a "sexual being" so he isn't sure what I want from him. I mean I've sent him pictures, tried to sext him like i said. tbh I'm not sure what he wants, and he's not the type to just communicate. instead I have to read his mind.

SO, I put together a lil corset outfit to wear for him, and I figured I'd do the old fashioned, show up at his house with it under my long coat type deal. I've never done anything like this before, and I really want to surprise him. i don't want to reveal what's going on while he's in the living room which is the first room you walk into, because he's always weird about moving things in the moment to the bedroom.

so I decided, I'd text him when I'm five minutes away something like, "I'll be there in five minutes. I want you in the bedroom, on the bed, face down with no clothes on. when I walk in, don't look at me."

and then I planned to come in, give him a nice lengthy massage, obviously work my way towards making it sexual. i planned to wear these garter type tights so I'm sure while I'm on him he will be able to feel them, but he won't be able to actually see me until after I'm ready to flip him over and fully engage in whatever we plan to do.

SO my question is, would you feel awkward to have to be laying face down like that? super exposed, vulnerable? more focused on those negative type feelings vs the sexual possibilities? I mean i eat his ass all the time so it isn't something that is unfamiliar territory, but I understand how some things can still make you feel exposed. I just thought this way there's a lot more thrill of "what is going to happen?" I considered having him blindfold himself, but then I feel the whole process of how I'd go about timing taking the blindfold off and that whole ordeal makes me nervous to think about because yeah like I said I'm awkward and haven't done this before.

Sorry for the read, and please no private messages. Thank you in advance

Submitted November 17, 2021 at 11:25PM

I've (f) been in a relationship with my partner (m) for about two years. I'm always shy in the beginning sexually, and so the sexual advances he made in the beginning kind of weren't received well? or rather, my response wasn't very encouraging. last year I got comfortable enough to be ready to be my normal frisky self. but by that time, I think the "rejection" I gave early on in the relationship kind of made him shut down. ever since then I've been making advances through text whether it's sexual conversation, pictures, etc., and he just never really has fed into it. So finally I kinda got fed up, communicated my feelings a few times. finally he told me last week, that I don't present myself as a "sexual being" so he isn't sure what I want from him. I mean I've sent him pictures, tried to sext him like i said. tbh I'm not sure what he wants, and he's not the type to just communicate. instead I have to read his mind.SO, I put together a lil corset outfit to wear for him, and I figured I'd do the old fashioned, show up at his house with it under my long coat type deal. I've never done anything like this before, and I really want to surprise him. i don't want to reveal what's going on while he's in the living room which is the first room you walk into, because he's always weird about moving things in the moment to the bedroom.so I decided, I'd text him when I'm five minutes away something like, "I'll be there in five minutes. I want you in the bedroom, on the bed, face down with no clothes on. when I walk in, don't look at me."and then I planned to come in, give him a nice lengthy massage, obviously work my way towards making it sexual. i planned to wear these garter type tights so I'm sure while I'm on him he will be able to feel them, but he won't be able to actually see me until after I'm ready to flip him over and fully engage in whatever we plan to do.SO my question is, would you feel awkward to have to be laying face down like that? super exposed, vulnerable? more focused on those negative type feelings vs the sexual possibilities? I mean i eat his ass all the time so it isn't something that is unfamiliar territory, but I understand how some things can still make you feel exposed. I just thought this way there's a lot more thrill of "what is going to happen?" I considered having him blindfold himself, but then I feel the whole process of how I'd go about timing taking the blindfold off and that whole ordeal makes me nervous to think about because yeah like I said I'm awkward and haven't done this before.Sorry for the read, and please no private messages. Thank you in advance