(23 F) Good, attentive sex has boosted my confidence and body image!

So, I've always been extremely shy about my body, but finally getting a good boyfriend seems to be changing that for me.

In high school I was always the girl who changed facing the corner after gym class. I've usually been filled with dread before doctor appointments, and I didn't even like my cat seeing me naked. I'm not obese, and I don't have anything weird going on. I just felt like every tiny detail could be up for appraisal.

A few months ago I started getting sexual with a guy, and the way he's been treating me has absolutely blown my mind! He asks me for feedback, like do you like that, does that feel good, or even what would you like me to do to you? And of course the sex is wonderful with all the communication going on! In retrospect, this seems pretty basic, but the other two guys I've had sex with didn't do that. I've put up with bad cunnilingus that I wasn't really into, and that's even after giving a few hints that were promptly ignored. My first boyfriend even said, and I quote "What the fuck are you doing?" when I tried fingering my clit while we were having sex. I seriously thought I had committed some sexual faux pas for a while. Was that insulting? Was my fingernail gouging his dick? Only after lurking on r/Sex for a while did I realize I hadn't done anything wrong.

But with my current boyfriend (who I am starting to hope will be around long term), my enjoyment of sex has gone way up! I feel like I can let loose and just be myself, do what I want, and ask for what I want. Before, the concept of sex was something a little nerve-wracking, like I'm being judged. Now, it's nothing but relaxing and happy!

And it's not just in the bedroom that I've been feeling more comfortable with my sexuality. These body issues I mentioned earlier are going away. He'd usually stay naked after sex (which I hardly mind!), but after our third or fourth time he asked me why I always got dressed immediately after. I asked him if he wanted me to stay naked, and thinking about how he responded still makes me feel warm today! He said "No, I want you to be comfortable. I'm just wondering if you're uncomfortable being naked with me?"

Fast forward to today, and I'm actually a lot more comfortable naked. We walk around his apartment naked sometimes for shits and giggles. I'm not exactly itching to run off to a nude beach or anything, but I've also found myself walking around my place naked when I'm alone. Yeah, it feels kind of sexy, but it's also nice to not feel bad about myself. It's nice to revel in the fact that these insecurities are gone! Thanks to him, mostly, but also thanks to this subreddit. Thanks, guys! And in case anyone's wondering, kitty doesn't seem to give two shits if I'm wearing clothes or not.



Submitted April 29, 2020 at 11:47PM

So, I've always been extremely shy about my body, but finally getting a good boyfriend seems to be changing that for me.In high school I was always the girl who changed facing the corner after gym class. I've usually been filled with dread before doctor appointments, and I didn't even like my cat seeing me naked. I'm not obese, and I don't have anything weird going on. I just felt like every tiny detail could be up for appraisal.A few months ago I started getting sexual with a guy, and the way he's been treating me has absolutely blown my mind! He asks me for feedback, like do you like that, does that feel good, or even what would you like me to do to you? And of course the sex is wonderful with all the communication going on! In retrospect, this seems pretty basic, but the other two guys I've had sex with didn't do that. I've put up with bad cunnilingus that I wasn't really into, and that's even after giving a few hints that were promptly ignored. My first boyfriend even said, and I quote "What the fuck are you doing?" when I tried fingering my clit while we were having sex. I seriously thought I had committed some sexual faux pas for a while. Was that insulting? Was my fingernail gouging his dick? Only after lurking on r/Sex for a while did I realize I hadn't done anything wrong.But with my current boyfriend (who I am starting to hope will be around long term), my enjoyment of sex has gone way up! I feel like I can let loose and just be myself, do what I want, and ask for what I want. Before, the concept of sex was something a little nerve-wracking, like I'm being judged. Now, it's nothing but relaxing and happy!And it's not just in the bedroom that I've been feeling more comfortable with my sexuality. These body issues I mentioned earlier are going away. He'd usually stay naked after sex (which I hardly mind!), but after our third or fourth time he asked me why I always got dressed immediately after. I asked him if he wanted me to stay naked, and thinking about how he responded still makes me feel warm today! He said "No, I want you to be comfortable. I'm just wondering if you're uncomfortable being naked with me?"Fast forward to today, and I'm actually a lot more comfortable naked. We walk around his apartment naked sometimes for shits and giggles. I'm not exactly itching to run off to a nude beach or anything, but I've also found myself walking around my place naked when I'm alone. Yeah, it feels kind of sexy, but it's also nice to not feel bad about myself. It's nice to revel in the fact that these insecurities are gone! Thanks to him, mostly, but also thanks to this subreddit. Thanks, guys! And in case anyone's wondering, kitty doesn't seem to give two shits if I'm wearing clothes or not.
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