To be in love or not to be

This is my first post so be kind to me. The last relationship that i was in ended in December 2014 . I was dating that girl for 2 years. Fast forward it to now in 2019 after 5 years i still find myself single . I sometimes wonder why ? . Sometimes i feel something is wrong with me . Whenever i am seeing someone i always feel I don’t put enough effort to make things work. I badly want to be in love but I don’t want to rush into it because i get attached to people easily. I want to find that person and stay with that person forever i know it’s easier said then done. But i feel not being in love is just a waste of time . I want to feel things again, i want to keep looking at my phn to see if she txtd me or not, i want to kiss her just to have that headrush,i want to look into her eyes and tell her how much she means to me and I want to tell her how long have i waited for her and why it was worth it .i just need to find her to tell her she means the world to me and i for a second cannot live my life without her....but when i come back to reality and see how things stand today i cannot help but ask myself where the hell is she?



Submitted November 07, 2019 at 11:44PM

This is my first post so be kind to me. The last relationship that i was in ended in December 2014 . I was dating that girl for 2 years. Fast forward it to now in 2019 after 5 years i still find myself single . I sometimes wonder why ? . Sometimes i feel something is wrong with me . Whenever i am seeing someone i always feel I don’t put enough effort to make things work. I badly want to be in love but I don’t want to rush into it because i get attached to people easily. I want to find that person and stay with that person forever i know it’s easier said then done. But i feel not being in love is just a waste of time . I want to feel things again, i want to keep looking at my phn to see if she txtd me or not, i want to kiss her just to have that headrush,i want to look into her eyes and tell her how much she means to me and I want to tell her how long have i waited for her and why it was worth it .i just need to find her to tell her she means the world to me and i for a second cannot live my life without her....but when i come back to reality and see how things stand today i cannot help but ask myself where the hell is she?

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