Is something wrong with my vulvar and vagina?

I don't have any problem with masturbation. I can get orgasm quickly and easily from rubbing clits and G-spot when fingering and nipples stimulation. I use my imagination or porn. I never thought of anyone from real life.

As I got older (late 20's), I don't get horny so much. Only during ovulation or periods (not always though). When I tried to masturbate while not being horny, I got a little bit aroused. Orgasms were weak and meh. Other times, orgasms were intense and amazing.... I did moan. By the way, I NEVER have squirting orgasm in my whole life.

I know that sounds like nothing is wrong with me, but when I had sex with a guy, that felt nothing like masturbation. That was just touching and sex. That was it. I didn't feel horny or aroused like when I was horny for masturbation. I still got wet.

I lost my virginity to my friend whom I hooked up with several times for two years. He was a cool guy and he respected all of my boundaries. I'm so glad he was my first guy. He would try to please me and go down on me. That felt so great but I just couldn't come.

Do you know what's strange? I really enjoyed fucking even if that didn't feel like the whole masturbation thing and I didn't come. I just liked to fuck and I loved when having his dick in me. It was also fun to ride his dick. I don't know why. When I properly rode his dick for first time recently, I got a little bit aroused for few seconds because I realized he stared at my chest. Even if I didn't feel the same way with masturbation, I just liked to keep riding his dick.

Even if I didn't moan and orgasm, I didn't feel disappointed or unsatisfied. I felt satisfied. I didn't fo "Blah, I don't want to have sex anymore." I still wanted more sex. Sex is still always on my mind.

Do I still have a desire to sleep around? Nope. I'd sleep with someone only if I felt a "sexual spark." I felt one with someone else but I don't think he was interested in me so I moved on. I also don't care about exploring different people. I was even excited to hook up with my friend again.... Yes, I did have a good time with him but I didn't moan or orgasm. The only intense feeling I had was from receiving oral sex. I also loved to give oral sex.

Maybe I should have fantasized about something during sex or watched porn before? I mean that's difficult to have an imagination while I was distracted with a partner..... I tried to touch myself during sex. I often asked him to grab and suck my breasts but nipple stimulation didn't work unless I was doing it in a room alone.

Before you ask me if I was physically attracted to my friend, I really think he's cute and I like all physical features and even his personality. I even thought of our sexual moments during my masturbation and I got turned on. When I was with a partner, my vulvar just shutted down. Sure, I still got wet and they did swell up as if I was aroused. I didn't feel horny. That may be just a body reaction when we had foreplay. I still want sex. I still want a dick in me.

Will a relationship make sex better? I heard relationship sex is amazing. I wish I could find a boyfriend and see if it would be any different than casual sex. Would that make me moan and orgasm like masturbation?



Submitted September 25, 2019 at 12:49AM

I don't have any problem with masturbation. I can get orgasm quickly and easily from rubbing clits and G-spot when fingering and nipples stimulation. I use my imagination or porn. I never thought of anyone from real life.As I got older (late 20's), I don't get horny so much. Only during ovulation or periods (not always though). When I tried to masturbate while not being horny, I got a little bit aroused. Orgasms were weak and meh. Other times, orgasms were intense and amazing.... I did moan. By the way, I NEVER have squirting orgasm in my whole life.I know that sounds like nothing is wrong with me, but when I had sex with a guy, that felt nothing like masturbation. That was just touching and sex. That was it. I didn't feel horny or aroused like when I was horny for masturbation. I still got wet.I lost my virginity to my friend whom I hooked up with several times for two years. He was a cool guy and he respected all of my boundaries. I'm so glad he was my first guy. He would try to please me and go down on me. That felt so great but I just couldn't come.Do you know what's strange? I really enjoyed fucking even if that didn't feel like the whole masturbation thing and I didn't come. I just liked to fuck and I loved when having his dick in me. It was also fun to ride his dick. I don't know why. When I properly rode his dick for first time recently, I got a little bit aroused for few seconds because I realized he stared at my chest. Even if I didn't feel the same way with masturbation, I just liked to keep riding his dick.Even if I didn't moan and orgasm, I didn't feel disappointed or unsatisfied. I felt satisfied. I didn't fo "Blah, I don't want to have sex anymore." I still wanted more sex. Sex is still always on my mind.Do I still have a desire to sleep around? Nope. I'd sleep with someone only if I felt a "sexual spark." I felt one with someone else but I don't think he was interested in me so I moved on. I also don't care about exploring different people. I was even excited to hook up with my friend again.... Yes, I did have a good time with him but I didn't moan or orgasm. The only intense feeling I had was from receiving oral sex. I also loved to give oral sex.Maybe I should have fantasized about something during sex or watched porn before? I mean that's difficult to have an imagination while I was distracted with a partner..... I tried to touch myself during sex. I often asked him to grab and suck my breasts but nipple stimulation didn't work unless I was doing it in a room alone.Before you ask me if I was physically attracted to my friend, I really think he's cute and I like all physical features and even his personality. I even thought of our sexual moments during my masturbation and I got turned on. When I was with a partner, my vulvar just shutted down. Sure, I still got wet and they did swell up as if I was aroused. I didn't feel horny. That may be just a body reaction when we had foreplay. I still want sex. I still want a dick in me.Will a relationship make sex better? I heard relationship sex is amazing. I wish I could find a boyfriend and see if it would be any different than casual sex. Would that make me moan and orgasm like masturbation?

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