I’m [18F] afraid to tell my boyfriend [19M] about my embarrassing kink... and it prevents me from having an orgasm during sex.

Alright here it goes...

I’ve never told anyone, whether a close friend or a lover, about this so hey why not tell a bunch of strangers on Reddit!

Ever since I was a kid I’ve had a weird fetish. I discovered masturbation by touching myself while watching cartoons. I don’t know how it developed but I ended up with a fart kink. I’ve burried this deep within me for almost my entire life. I’ve been in constant denial and have always insisted “I can orgasm without it!”

I’ve always found myself turned on by specifically women farting. Whether it’s intentional, unintentional, real or not, it’s so fucking hot to me. I know that’s gross, but I have no control over it.

Well, now that I’m sexually active I’ve realized no matter how turned on I get or how long I’ve been caressed and fucked I still can’t come. This hidden kink contributes to my orgasm anxiety and how I have trouble coming without my kink. Now I have a shitty mental block that prevents me from coming, even while masturbating.

I’ve watched a lot of fart porn and have been able to wean myself off of it for a while and watch regular porn, but I’ve always found myself turning back to it every once in a while. I wish I was able to orgasm while having sex with my boyfriend and be able to masturbate without shame.

I remember almost telling my boyfriend about it, insisting it was weird and gross, but I ended up saying I had a kink for being walked in on. It’s so far from the truth but I’ve been ashamed my entire life...

Should I tell my boyfriend? He’s a big fan of all things ass and ass eating, but I feel like he wouldn’t be able to look at me the same again. On the other hand if we were able to incorporate my fetish, maybe I’d be able to orgasm? Should I try to get rid of it? I’m so lost and embarrassed.



Submitted September 01, 2019 at 12:07AM

Alright here it goes...I’ve never told anyone, whether a close friend or a lover, about this so hey why not tell a bunch of strangers on Reddit!Ever since I was a kid I’ve had a weird fetish. I discovered masturbation by touching myself while watching cartoons. I don’t know how it developed but I ended up with a fart kink. I’ve burried this deep within me for almost my entire life. I’ve been in constant denial and have always insisted “I can orgasm without it!”I’ve always found myself turned on by specifically women farting. Whether it’s intentional, unintentional, real or not, it’s so fucking hot to me. I know that’s gross, but I have no control over it.Well, now that I’m sexually active I’ve realized no matter how turned on I get or how long I’ve been caressed and fucked I still can’t come. This hidden kink contributes to my orgasm anxiety and how I have trouble coming without my kink. Now I have a shitty mental block that prevents me from coming, even while masturbating.I’ve watched a lot of fart porn and have been able to wean myself off of it for a while and watch regular porn, but I’ve always found myself turning back to it every once in a while. I wish I was able to orgasm while having sex with my boyfriend and be able to masturbate without shame.I remember almost telling my boyfriend about it, insisting it was weird and gross, but I ended up saying I had a kink for being walked in on. It’s so far from the truth but I’ve been ashamed my entire life...Should I tell my boyfriend? He’s a big fan of all things ass and ass eating, but I feel like he wouldn’t be able to look at me the same again. On the other hand if we were able to incorporate my fetish, maybe I’d be able to orgasm? Should I try to get rid of it? I’m so lost and embarrassed.
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