I’m afraid my insecurities will soon lead to the ending of my relationship

Hello, so I (18f) have been dating my (18m) boyfriend for a year and I'm so happy with him, he's the sweetest, loving, caring, and best boyfriend which makes this even harder to admit. When me and him first started talking he informed me that he was in a three year relationship five months before we met but assured me that he had moved on and she didn't mean anything to him anymore. Despite being told by many friends that he probably still had feelings for her I really liked him and we started dating a couple months later and at first it was the best he complimented me (and still does) everyday and I've never felt more loved and wanted. However two months into our relationship he told me his ex had called telling him that she was mentally ill and just needed someone to talk to, however during that conversation she mentioned still being in love with him and wanting him back. He immediately shut her down but told her he would be there for her. I felt very uncomfortable with this idea as she had just confessed her feelings and I knew her motive. He told me he loves us both and just wants to help her and I was mortified at that comment so I told him we needed to take a break. He was devastated. He called multiple times and left voicemails explaining that he didn't mean it and that he was just trying to be a good person.

Well I forgave him and three months later we got back together. I've been very happy since then but I fear that my insecurities will ruin our relationship, although I know he loves me I can't help but to compare myself to her. She is very beautiful and has my dream body. She was always willing to try out new stuff in bed while I am very shy when it comes to that stuff but thankfully he reassures me every time how perfect I am and I don't need to do anything I don't want to do. She took his virginity and vice versa and he took mine. Everytime I think about stuff we've done I can't help but wonder if he wishes those times were with her.

He recently moved back to the state he was raised in with his aunt which is about two hours away due to him wanting to save money for his own apartment but the problem is he is back to living close to his ex's house. I love and trust him but sometimes I wonder that when we argue he thinks about going back to his ex. He is the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time but these thoughts have been driving me crazy and I just want to tell him how I feel but l'm scared of how he will react, don't want him to think I'm so insecure that I would think he would stoop so low.

What should I do?



Submitted November 05, 2022 at 12:11AM

Hello, so I (18f) have been dating my (18m) boyfriend for a year and I'm so happy with him, he's the sweetest, loving, caring, and best boyfriend which makes this even harder to admit. When me and him first started talking he informed me that he was in a three year relationship five months before we met but assured me that he had moved on and she didn't mean anything to him anymore. Despite being told by many friends that he probably still had feelings for her I really liked him and we started dating a couple months later and at first it was the best he complimented me (and still does) everyday and I've never felt more loved and wanted. However two months into our relationship he told me his ex had called telling him that she was mentally ill and just needed someone to talk to, however during that conversation she mentioned still being in love with him and wanting him back. He immediately shut her down but told her he would be there for her. I felt very uncomfortable with this idea as she had just confessed her feelings and I knew her motive. He told me he loves us both and just wants to help her and I was mortified at that comment so I told him we needed to take a break. He was devastated. He called multiple times and left voicemails explaining that he didn't mean it and that he was just trying to be a good person.Well I forgave him and three months later we got back together. I've been very happy since then but I fear that my insecurities will ruin our relationship, although I know he loves me I can't help but to compare myself to her. She is very beautiful and has my dream body. She was always willing to try out new stuff in bed while I am very shy when it comes to that stuff but thankfully he reassures me every time how perfect I am and I don't need to do anything I don't want to do. She took his virginity and vice versa and he took mine. Everytime I think about stuff we've done I can't help but wonder if he wishes those times were with her.He recently moved back to the state he was raised in with his aunt which is about two hours away due to him wanting to save money for his own apartment but the problem is he is back to living close to his ex's house. I love and trust him but sometimes I wonder that when we argue he thinks about going back to his ex. He is the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time but these thoughts have been driving me crazy and I just want to tell him how I feel but l'm scared of how he will react, don't want him to think I'm so insecure that I would think he would stoop so low.What should I do?
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