Should i be in a relationship?

I (f20) have literally never been single, i got my first “serious” bf in 4th grade and we dated until 7th. The longest i have ever been single was for the entirety of 8th grade. I got with my next bf the summer before high school and we were together for 2 years, he was very toxic and abusive but i was more scared of being alone than of him. When we broke up I immediately found someone new then we were together for a year and a half on and off. When that ended (bc he became heavily addicted to drugs) i, again, like immediately found someone new, we broke up in the beginning of the summer because he decided to go to a far away college and i am not about long distance. I was single for ONE W H O L E hot girl summer (the longest i have been single since 8th grade) and I discovered that i can pretty much have anyone i want, it was very liberating and awesome. Now here is the problem. At the very end of that summer i found the PERFECT guy, he is so much better than anyone i have ever dated or talked to and hes so awesome. Hes hilarious, caring, supportive, outrageously smart, and handsome, his only “downfall” is that sometimes he can be a little insecure but overall hes amazing. So amazing in fact that I literally spend ALL my time with him. I have a lot of things that i want to do like work on my art projects, make more videos, spend more time with my family (maybe clean my room😬) but i just cant stay away from him, hes so much fun to be around, i always go to his house(i live with my parents so he doesnt come to mine) i have talked to him about this and we have tried setting up “visiting hours” and “rules” many times but after like a week we give in and i am at his house everyday again. I see a future with him, we have been together for over 2 years now and we have talked about how we want marriage and kids but i cant help but feel like maybe i need to find myself more before i do that. I just CANNOT lose him😭😭😭 Ive told him about all of this and he suggested maybe we take a year long break but that TERRIFIES me like what if we dont get back together😭😭 WHAT DO I DO



Submitted September 21, 2023 at 11:54PM

I (f20) have literally never been single, i got my first “serious” bf in 4th grade and we dated until 7th. The longest i have ever been single was for the entirety of 8th grade. I got with my next bf the summer before high school and we were together for 2 years, he was very toxic and abusive but i was more scared of being alone than of him. When we broke up I immediately found someone new then we were together for a year and a half on and off. When that ended (bc he became heavily addicted to drugs) i, again, like immediately found someone new, we broke up in the beginning of the summer because he decided to go to a far away college and i am not about long distance. I was single for ONE W H O L E hot girl summer (the longest i have been single since 8th grade) and I discovered that i can pretty much have anyone i want, it was very liberating and awesome. Now here is the problem. At the very end of that summer i found the PERFECT guy, he is so much better than anyone i have ever dated or talked to and hes so awesome. Hes hilarious, caring, supportive, outrageously smart, and handsome, his only “downfall” is that sometimes he can be a little insecure but overall hes amazing. So amazing in fact that I literally spend ALL my time with him. I have a lot of things that i want to do like work on my art projects, make more videos, spend more time with my family (maybe clean my room😬) but i just cant stay away from him, hes so much fun to be around, i always go to his house(i live with my parents so he doesnt come to mine) i have talked to him about this and we have tried setting up “visiting hours” and “rules” many times but after like a week we give in and i am at his house everyday again. I see a future with him, we have been together for over 2 years now and we have talked about how we want marriage and kids but i cant help but feel like maybe i need to find myself more before i do that. I just CANNOT lose him😭😭😭 Ive told him about all of this and he suggested maybe we take a year long break but that TERRIFIES me like what if we dont get back together😭😭 WHAT DO I DO
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