Is the universal testing me or am I delusional?

Hi 25 Female. So I’ve been hooking up with this guy (He’s 24) for about a month, it’s my first time actually hooking up with a man at least consistently being that I recently just came out as bisexual. So from the beginning I told this guy I wanted to try actually dating a guy at least for a bit even if we started out by just having sex at first. He made it clear it wasn’t looking for anything serious but would be open to the idea of giving dating a try. So we’ve hung out four times but been constantly communicating. We had sex the 3rd time we hung out and then he had to leave for a trip for about a week. I felt myself missing him and wanting to see him which was kinda weird. When he got back from his trip I texted I wanted to see him so I went over. He was different. He definitely seemed into me physically at least but his conversation were a little one sided. I’d asked about his trip or his past etc. But it literally felt like an interview. Anyways I had set my mind as he dropped me off that night that I definitely wasn’t going to see him again. Even though the sex is amazing. But now it’s been two days snd I realized I might had left my wallet at his place. I haven’t heard from him, and my wallet also only has my debit card that I’ve already canceled. Now I’m kinda dreading having to text him about the dumb wallet cause what if it’s not even there. But I also would like to see him again but if I do, do I communicate how I felt the last time we saw each other? I know it may seem like such a small and dumb question but I’ve always suffer with social anxiety and again I’ve never dated men. Women are more straight forward with their feelings and it’s hard to read men’s.

Submitted May 16, 2023 at 01:14AM

Hi 25 Female. So I’ve been hooking up with this guy (He’s 24) for about a month, it’s my first time actually hooking up with a man at least consistently being that I recently just came out as bisexual. So from the beginning I told this guy I wanted to try actually dating a guy at least for a bit even if we started out by just having sex at first. He made it clear it wasn’t looking for anything serious but would be open to the idea of giving dating a try. So we’ve hung out four times but been constantly communicating. We had sex the 3rd time we hung out and then he had to leave for a trip for about a week. I felt myself missing him and wanting to see him which was kinda weird. When he got back from his trip I texted I wanted to see him so I went over. He was different. He definitely seemed into me physically at least but his conversation were a little one sided. I’d asked about his trip or his past etc. But it literally felt like an interview. Anyways I had set my mind as he dropped me off that night that I definitely wasn’t going to see him again. Even though the sex is amazing. But now it’s been two days snd I realized I might had left my wallet at his place. I haven’t heard from him, and my wallet also only has my debit card that I’ve already canceled. Now I’m kinda dreading having to text him about the dumb wallet cause what if it’s not even there. But I also would like to see him again but if I do, do I communicate how I felt the last time we saw each other? I know it may seem like such a small and dumb question but I’ve always suffer with social anxiety and again I’ve never dated men. Women are more straight forward with their feelings and it’s hard to read men’s.