I(18f) think I like my best friend (18f), but I dont know what to do

I finally decided to come to this subreddit because I’ve been thinking about this for months. I generally consider myself straight, I have only ever had relationships with men. However, nearing the end of my last relationship with a guy, I noticed that I couldn’t help but admire my best friend. Her and I have been so close since we were 3 years old and we grew up together. Here and there I have had some passing thoughts about her that were maybe a bit different than what I usually would. After I ended my relationship with that guy (for a completely unrelated reason), I found myself contemplating it more and more. I notice myself staring at her more, which I’ve never done before. She’s bisexual, but is only recently exploring her sexuality. There’s been a few times where she has mentioned a bad sex story or something she’d wish someone would do to her, and immediately my first thought is something along the lines of “I could do that, but better.” Whenever she talks about someone she likes or something along those lines, I get a tiny bit jealous. A little while ago she told me that she wished she could have a sex partner, and even specified it to a female partner. I don’t know if I would want a romantic relationship with her, but I can’t help but think of her. However knowing her, she’s quick to fall for people rather than having more of a no strings attached relationship. I don’t want to ruin our friendship by bringing this up to her, but I’m afraid that if I don’t, it will eat away at me. Please share any advice if you have it! Thank you so much.

Submitted February 25, 2022 at 12:14AM

I finally decided to come to this subreddit because I’ve been thinking about this for months. I generally consider myself straight, I have only ever had relationships with men. However, nearing the end of my last relationship with a guy, I noticed that I couldn’t help but admire my best friend. Her and I have been so close since we were 3 years old and we grew up together. Here and there I have had some passing thoughts about her that were maybe a bit different than what I usually would. After I ended my relationship with that guy (for a completely unrelated reason), I found myself contemplating it more and more. I notice myself staring at her more, which I’ve never done before. She’s bisexual, but is only recently exploring her sexuality. There’s been a few times where she has mentioned a bad sex story or something she’d wish someone would do to her, and immediately my first thought is something along the lines of “I could do that, but better.” Whenever she talks about someone she likes or something along those lines, I get a tiny bit jealous. A little while ago she told me that she wished she could have a sex partner, and even specified it to a female partner. I don’t know if I would want a romantic relationship with her, but I can’t help but think of her. However knowing her, she’s quick to fall for people rather than having more of a no strings attached relationship. I don’t want to ruin our friendship by bringing this up to her, but I’m afraid that if I don’t, it will eat away at me. Please share any advice if you have it! Thank you so much.