Can confirm, you're not alone! Literally a day or so ago I asked a similar question along the lines of "What's the word for when you find fictional characters attractive but not real people?" and found out about aegosexuality thanks to some really helpful users. I'm sex-aversed, so I can't say I've had the exact same experience as you when it come to liking fictional characters, but I too never could "see myself with them" so much as I just really like their designs and personalities. I also fantasize about characters and even OCs of mine in relationships, but just emotional bonds and cuddling (and going on adventures/fighting epic monsters because that's always fun :p). Also, I've had a very similar social experience too in terms of male friends, unfortunately... I'm nonbinary (AFAB), but I'm not out to anyone irl, and the only male friends I haven't lost due to them wanting more out of the relationship despite me telling ...

I’m questioning myself. I can find people attractive but have never had the urge or thoughts of having sex with them. I think it could be nice to cuddle or be physically close to someone but sex feels like too much. I’m also pretty selective about who I would want to be in physical contact with for things like hugs. I feel really confused about sex and like I don’t understand it. September 05, 2020 at 11:55PM

i thought you were heypoppy when i first looked at you September 05, 2020 at 11:55PM

Dating and romance gives me so much anxiety. I know I want to, but I don't know if I ever will or even how that would work. September 05, 2020 at 11:54PM

Same, I've only come out to a few friends (and Reddit obviously). I just don't want people's questions and ignorance. September 05, 2020 at 11:53PM

Honestly when people say my beauty is such a waste and that I'm such a tease, I feel very insecure and guilty. It's so easy to forget that my existence's purpose is not just to please other people. I hope I can get to this level of security in my sexuality. September 05, 2020 at 11:51PM

Exactly. I've ever failed to recognize my own reflection at least once due to a mirror being somewhere I didn't expect a mirror to be September 05, 2020 at 11:51PM